Before very long she realised that she was listening to a thinker
thinking aloud in the presence of the one woman who understood. He was
so confident, so strong, so much above the hedgerows of circumstance,
that she began to be more afraid for his sake than for her own. His
words seemed ready to sweep her away into a rare and intimate future. It
was ideal, innocent, almost boyish. He mapped out plans for her; talked
of what they would create; declared for a yearly show of her pictures at
Fernhill, and that her work must be made known in London. They could
take the Goethe Gallery. Then he wanted pictures of the French and
Italian gardens. She could make a tour, sketch the Riviera, paint
rhododendrons and roses by the Italian lakes, and bring him back studies
of Swiss meadows all blue and green and white in May or June. She had a
future. He talked of it almost with passion, as though it were something
that was very precious to his pride.
Eve’s heart grew heavy. She began to feel a mute pity for Canterton and
for herself. Her vision became so terribly clear and frank that she saw
all that his idealist’s eyes did not see, and felt all that he was too
big and too magnanimous to feel. He did not trouble to understand the
little world about him. Its perspective was not his perspective, and it
had no knowledge of colour.
She became more and more silent, until this silence of hers was like a
pool of water without a ripple, yet its passivity had a positive effect
upon Canterton’s consciousness. His eyes began to watch her face and to
ask questions.
“Don’t you see all this?”
“Oh, yes, I see it all!”
He was puzzled.
“Perhaps it does not strike you as real?”
She turned her face away.
“Don’t you know that sometimes things may seem too real?”
He began to be absorbed into her silence of a minute ago. Eve made an
effort, and picked up a brush. She guessed that something was happening
in the heart of the man beside her, and she wondered whether the cold
and conventional light of a more worldly wisdom would break in and
enable him to understand.
“Eve!”
“Yes!”
She kept on with her work.
“Do you think that I have been talking like a fool?”
“Oh, no, not that.”
“Then——”
She made herself meet his eyes.
“Sometimes the really fine things are so impossible. That’s why life may
be so sad.”
* * * * *
CHAPTER XVI
JAMES CANTERTON AWAKES
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