Female friendship -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Paris (France) -- Fiction; Women -- Fiction
Sonia could see the very expressions of their faces as they would look
up for direction to the sisters as they passed, lifting their meek and
timid glances with an air of solemnity which in some instances
struggled with a sense of pride in their unwonted paraphernalia.
Somehow, the sight of so much ignorance, trust, and innocence, and the
thought that each one of them possessed a woman’s heart, with all its
capacity for suffering, for hoping, for loving, for regretting,
absolutely overcame her. How ignorant they were of what lay before them!
How fearlessly their little feet were entering upon the long journey of
life, so blind to the pains and bitterness of its way! It seemed
heartrendingly cruel to her, to think how they must suffer from the mere
fact that each one of them was a woman-child. O God, that women had to
suffer so!--that even love, the one delight, should bring in its wake
such pain! She could see none of the joy ahead of these sweet children;
she thought only of what her own heart suffered now--the regret, the
longing, the unfathomable sadness, the blight, the disappointment, the
despair! The passionate pain of her heart broke forth in violent sobbing
as she stood between the parted curtains, fascinated by the lovely
sight, but scarcely able to see it for her tears.
“O God, have pity on them--have pity on them!” she sobbed aloud; and
then, while her whole frame shook with her violent weeping, she
suddenly became aware of the stealing on of a new influence. What was
it? Nothing so definite as sight or sound, but something subtly powerful
in its significance to her. It was the pungent odor of a certain kind of
cigar which had once made part of the familiar atmosphere of her life.
It dominated her now, as if by a spell. She was instantly calmed, and,
as if by magic, swept back into the thrilling past. Then, suddenly,
penetrating this familiar atmosphere, there came a familiar sound--no
articulate utterance, but just a sound in the throat, which seemed
somehow meant to challenge attention. She would have known that voice in
the most distant and unlikely spot of earth; and now it became quite
plain to her that Harold had returned, and was watching the scene
opposite from his open window, scarcely a yard away.
He must have heard her words and sobs! He must have understood them, he
was so well practised in reading her heart. It had been an open book to
him once, though now it must be forever locked and sealed.
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