Female friendship -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Paris (France) -- Fiction; Women -- Fiction
“Why should it not be known?” he said. “If a woman has looked on what
those eyes have seen, surely she is called upon to give her warning. If
that is what marriage meant to you, God pity you! God be thanked that
you are out of it!”
At his words there rushed across her mind the memory of a thousand acts
and thoughts and words of tenderness, of love, of strong protection, of
help in need and comfort in distress, which this man beside her had
given her. How could she tell him, though, that the ground of the
despair which she had painted had been the renunciation of these--the
thought that she had had a vision of what the love of man and woman
could be in a wedded life, and had been shut out from it? Where were now
the reasons that had seemed so powerful and sufficient for the course
which she had taken? Why was it that, try as she might, she could get no
sense of support and satisfaction from recalling these? Was it because
she felt them to be the foolish qualms of an ignorant girl, who was
prepared to fight against any and all conditions of life which did not
answer to her whim? O God, the hideous possibilities of error and of
wrong that were about one! How confident of right one might be in doing
an act of weakness and of shame!
She could not answer his last words. She felt herself suddenly so
possessed of the sense of his nearness that she could neither collect
nor control her thoughts. Her eyes were lowered, and she could not see
his face; but the very sight of his strong brown hand lying ungloved
upon his knee, the very bend of that knee and fold of the gray trousers,
seemed as familiar to her as her own body.
Suddenly she seemed to feel that he was hers, and that she was his,
whether they chose to recognize the fact or not; that God had joined
them, and no man, not even themselves, had power to put them asunder.
Harold, meantime, was wondering at her silence. Why was it that, after
her old defiant fashion, she had had no answer ready for his bitterly
felt and spoken words? That picture had stung his soul, and he would
have died sooner than have owned to himself even a wish to have her
back.
In spite of this, he could not forget that they were alone together, and
that she was ill and weak, and needed pity. He wondered suddenly if he
had been cruel in what he had said to her, and had put too great a tax
upon her strength.
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