Female friendship -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Paris (France) -- Fiction; Women -- Fiction
“Dear one,” he said, “what is it you are fighting against, if it be not
the coming back of love and joy?”
He could not see her eyes. He did not wish to see them yet. This waiting
was bliss, because there was hope in it.
She had ceased to struggle, and was quiet in his arms. They stood so,
many seconds, their hearts throbbing against each other, their cheeks
pressed. In the unspeakable sweetness of his nearness, Harold felt
against his face the moisture of a tear.
“What is it?” he whispered. “You are crying! For God’s sake, tell me
why!”
A gentle little head-shake answered him; but she made no motion to draw
herself away, and he, enraptured, held her close.
“There is nothing--_nothing_ that you cannot tell to me,” he said, still
in that whisper that thrilled the silence of the room. “Perhaps you do
not understand. Listen, and I will make it all plain. I loved you then.
I love you now. I have loved you through all the pain and silence in
between. Oh, dearest, never dream but that you are still my own--wholly
and unchangeably as I am yours--if only you love me!”
She kept so still that he was puzzled. He made a motion to draw back his
head and look at her, but she put up her hand and pressed his cheek
still closer against hers. He passionately wished that she would speak;
but there was no sound except that fluttered breathing, no motion but
that little tremor which he felt against his side. She was weakening,
weakening, weakening--he was sure of this; but he was in such an
absolute terror of misunderstanding her mood that he dared not move or
speak.
As they stood there so, he felt a sudden tightening of the pressure of
her arms. They strained him close against her. His heart leaped; but he
was not sure. There was something that alarmed him even in that clasp of
love.
“Are you happy?” he whispered in the lowest murmur. But with a sudden
wrench she tore herself away from him, and when he tried to follow,
waved him back with a gesture which he could not disregard.
“Happy!” she said in a voice that mocked the thought, as she wrung her
hands together, and then, for a moment, hid her face in the curve of one
tensely bended arm. “What have I to do with happiness?” she cried out,
flinging wide her arms, and looking upward, as if appealing to some
invisible presence rather than to him or to herself. “I had it given to
me once in boundless measure, and I played with it, and tossed it from
me. It was lightly and easily done, and now it cannot be undone.”
Harold stood where her imperious gesture had stopped him, and looked at
her in consternation.
“What do you mean?” he said. “You will not try now to deny your love for
me! You have owned it in that close embrace which can mean nothing
but--”
“Good-by!” she interrupted him. “It means inevitable parting. You must
go, or, if not, I must fly to some place where we cannot meet again.”
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