The Private Papers of Henry RyecroftGissing, George
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The Private Papers of Henry Ryecroft
Gissing, George
English fiction -- 19th century
This morning's sunshine faded amid slow-gathering clouds, but something
of its light seems still to linger in the air, and to touch the rain
which is falling softly. I hear a pattering upon the still leafage of
the garden; it is a sound which lulls, and tunes the mind to calm
thoughtfulness.
I have a letter to-day from my old friend in Germany, E. B. For many and
many a year these letters have made a pleasant incident in my life; more
than that, they have often brought me help and comfort. It must be a
rare thing for friendly correspondence to go on during the greater part
of a lifetime between men of different nationalities who see each other
not twice in two decades. We were young men when we first met in London,
poor, struggling, full of hopes and ideals; now we look back upon those
far memories from the autumn of life. B. writes to-day in a vein of
quiet contentment, which does me good. He quotes Goethe: "_Was man in
der Jugend begehrt hat man im Alter die Fulle_."
These words of Goethe's were once a hope to me; later, they made me shake
my head incredulously; now I smile to think how true they have proved in
my own case. But what, exactly, do they mean? Are they merely an
expression of the optimistic spirit? If so, optimism has to content
itself with rather doubtful generalities. Can it truly be said that most
men find the wishes of their youth satisfied in later life? Ten years
ago, I should have utterly denied it, and could have brought what seemed
to me abundant evidence in its disproof. And as regards myself, is it
not by mere happy accident that I pass my latter years in such enjoyment
of all I most desired? Accident--but there is no such thing. I might
just as well have called it an accident had I succeeded in earning the
money on which now I live.
From the beginning of my manhood, it is true, I longed for bookish
leisure; that, assuredly, is seldom even one of the desires in a young
man's heart, but perhaps it is one of those which may most reasonably
look for gratification later on. What, however, of the multitudes who
aim only at wealth, for the power and the pride and the material
pleasures which it represents? We know very well that few indeed are
successful in that aim; and, missing it, do they not miss everything? For
them, are not Goethe's words mere mockery?
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