The conflict made her feel terribly over-excited and nervous; but she
had one over-mastering reason for not obeying that impulse to ask a
direct question--she was afraid lest these two women might see she was
in love with Godfrey. Then she happened to glance at the clock, and
saw she was already late for the promenade; but as she hurried down the
drive she heard the whistle of a railway engine and stood perfectly
still just as if some one had called to her. But that was the
five-twenty-five train, of course. That by which Godfrey invariably
returned when he had spent the day in the city, was half an hour later.
If she waited outside the station until it came in, she would be
certain to see him. He _must_ speak to her then. This maddening agony
of uncertainty and suspense would be over at least.
But as she hurried along to the station with the moist west wind in her
face, she saw--behind those engrossing thoughts--the other girl waiting
angrily to be released from the pay-box. Still, that didn't matter to
Caroline. Nothing mattered in the world, but getting that talk with
Godfrey. For she had reached a point now, when all these business men
and shopping ladies who began to flow past her from the
platform--drawing their scarves closer, and buttoning their coats as
they merged into the cool, salt air after the warmer atmosphere of the
city--seemed no more to her than flies buzzing round a path she was
bent on following.
Wilf came past, taking long strides and wearing a new hat which he
removed slightly; giving a sideways, condescending nod which said as
plainly as words: "If you're waiting for _me_, miss, it's no go!"
But though she nodded in return, she was not actually aware of him.
Her heart beat unevenly and she felt a suspense which ran through every
nerve and every vein--she had no feeling beyond it. Her face was ashen
as she stood by the entrance to the station, with the breakers beyond
looking cruel in the cold light. Her eyes shone black, owing to the
pupils being so distended, but she appeared pinched and quiet as she
stood there, at the edge of the crowd, for her whirling emotions had
now reached that point which looks like stillness.
All of a sudden the blood rushed up over her forehead, and she
instinctively put her hand to her heart because it seemed to be leaping
out of its place. Here was Godfrey at last, walking with another man.
She moved forward and stood directly in his way, so that he must see
her. "Good evening," he said, then continued his conversation with the
broad, prosperous-looking merchant who walked by his side.
Caroline remained planted there, staring after them with an almost
foolish expression on her face. She could not take it in. It seemed
incredible. Then the two men vanished round the corner, and at the
same moment she heard a girl saying in her ear: "Cheer up, Carrie! If
Wilf hasn't caught this, he will get the next. He isn't dead."
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