The Prussian OfficerLawrence, D. H. (David Herbert)
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The Prussian Officer
Lawrence, D. H. (David Herbert)
Fiction; Short stories
That dance was an intoxication to her. After the first few steps, she
felt herself slipping away from herself. She almost knew she was going,
she did not even want to go. Yet she must have chosen to go. She lay in
the arm of the steady, close man with whom she was dancing, and she
seemed to swim away out of contact with the room, into him. She had
passed into another, denser element of him, an essential privacy. The
room was all vague around her, like an atmosphere, like under sea, with
a flow of ghostly, dumb movements. But she herself was held real
against her partner, and it seemed she was connected with him, as if
the movements of his body and limbs were her own movements, yet not her
own movements—and oh, delicious! He also was given up, oblivious,
concentrated, into the dance. His eye was unseeing. Only his large,
voluptuous body gave off a subtle activity. His fingers seemed to
search into her flesh. Every moment, and every moment, she felt she
would give way utterly, and sink molten: the fusion point was coming
when she would fuse down into perfect unconsciousness at his feet and
knees. But he bore her round the room in the dance, and he seemed to
sustain all her body with his limbs, his body, and his warmth seemed to
come closer into her, nearer, till it would fuse right through her, and
she would be as liquid to him, as an intoxication only.
It was exquisite. When it was over, she was dazed, and was scarcely
breathing. She stood with him in the middle of the room as if she were
alone in a remote place. He bent over her. She expected his lips on her
bare shoulder, and waited. Yet they were not alone, they were not
alone. It was cruel.
“’Twas good, wasn’t it, my darling?” he said to her, low and delighted.
There was a strange impersonality about his low, exultant call that
appealed to her irresistibly. Yet why was she aware of some part shut
off in her? She pressed his arm, and he led her towards the door.
She was not aware of what she was doing, only a little grain of
resistant trouble was in her. The man, possessed, yet with a
superficial presence of mind, made way to the dining-room, as if to
give her refreshment, cunningly working to his own escape with her. He
was molten hot, filmed over with presence of mind, and bottomed with
cold disbelief.
In the dining-room was Whiston, carrying coffee to the plain, neglected
ladies. Elsie saw him, but felt as if he could not see her. She was
beyond his reach and ken. A sort of fusion existed between her and the
large man at her side. She ate her custard, but an incomplete fusion
all the while sustained and contained her within the being of her
employer.
But she was growing cooler. Whiston came up. She looked at him, and saw
him with different eyes. She saw his slim, young man’s figure real and
enduring before her. That was he. But she was in the spell with the
other man, fused with him, and she could not be taken away.
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