The Prussian OfficerLawrence, D. H. (David Herbert)
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The Prussian Officer
Lawrence, D. H. (David Herbert)
Fiction; Short stories
And all the while her heart was bursting with grief and pity for him.
What had he suffered? What stretch of horror for this helpless man! She
was rigid with agony. She had not been able to help him. He had been
cruelly injured, this naked man, this other being, and she could make
no reparation. There were the children—but the children belonged to
life. This dead man had nothing to do with them. He and she were only
channels through which life had flowed to issue in the children. She
was a mother—but how awful she knew it now to have been a wife. And he,
dead now, how awful he must have felt it to be a husband. She felt that
in the next world he would be a stranger to her. If they met there, in
the beyond, they would only be ashamed of what had been before. The
children had come, for some mysterious reason, out of both of them. But
the children did not unite them. Now he was dead, she knew how
eternally he was apart from her, how eternally he had nothing more to
do with her. She saw this episode of her life closed. They had denied
each other in life. Now he had withdrawn. An anguish came over her. It
was finished then: it had become hopeless between them long before he
died. Yet he had been her husband. But how little!
“Have you got his shirt, ’Lizabeth?”
Elizabeth turned without answering, though she strove to weep and
behave as her mother-in-law expected. But she could not, she was
silenced. She went into the kitchen and returned with the garment.
“It is aired,” she said, grasping the cotton shirt here and there to
try. She was almost ashamed to handle him; what right had she or anyone
to lay hands on him; but her touch was humble on his body. It was hard
work to clothe him. He was so heavy and inert. A terrible dread gripped
her all the while: that he could be so heavy and utterly inert,
unresponsive, apart. The horror of the distance between them was almost
too much for her—it was so infinite a gap she must look across.
At last it was finished. They covered him with a sheet and left him
lying, with his face bound. And she fastened the door of the little
parlour, lest the children should see what was lying there. Then, with
peace sunk heavy on her heart, she went about making tidy the kitchen.
She knew she submitted to life, which was her immediate master. But
from death, her ultimate master, she winced with fear and shame.
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