The Prussian OfficerLawrence, D. H. (David Herbert)
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The Prussian Officer
Lawrence, D. H. (David Herbert)
Fiction; Short stories
She showed him nests of robins, and chaffinches, and linnets, and
buntings; of a wagtail beside the water.
“And if we go down, nearer the lake, I will show you a
kingfisher’s....”
“Among the young fir trees,” she said, “there’s a throstle’s or a
blackie’s on nearly every bough, every ledge. The first day, when I had
seen them all, I felt as if I mustn’t go in the wood. It seemed a city
of birds: and in the morning, hearing them all, I thought of the noisy
early markets. I was afraid to go in my own wood.”
She was using the language they had both of them invented. Now it was
all her own. He had done with it. She did not mind his silence, but was
always dominant, letting him see her wood. As they came along a marshy
path where forget-me-nots were opening in a rich blue drift: “We know
all the birds, but there are many flowers we can’t find out,” she said.
It was half an appeal to him, who had known the names of things.
She looked dreamily across to the open fields that slept in the sun.
“I have a lover as well, you know,” she said, with assurance, yet
dropping again almost into the intimate tone.
This woke in him the spirit to fight her.
“I think I met him. He is good-looking—also in Arcady.”
Without answering, she turned into a dark path that led up-hill, where
the trees and undergrowth were very thick.
“They did well,” she said at length, “to have various altars to various
gods, in old days.”
“Ah yes!” he agreed. “To whom is the new one?”
“There are no old ones,” she said. “I was always looking for this.”
“And whose is it?” he asked.
“I don’t know,” she said, looking full at him.
“I’m very glad, for your sake,” he said, “that you are satisfied.”
“Aye—but the man doesn’t matter so much,” she said. There was a pause.
“No!” he exclaimed, astonished, yet recognizing her as her real self.
“It is one’s self that matters,” she said. “Whether one is being one’s
own self and serving one’s own God.”
There was silence, during which he pondered. The path was almost
flowerless, gloomy. At the side, his heels sank into soft clay.
III
“I,” she said, very slowly, “I was married the same night as you.”
He looked at her.
“Not legally, of course,” she replied. “But—actually.”
“To the keeper?” he said, not knowing what else to say.
She turned to him.
“You thought I could not?” she said. But the flush was deep in her
cheek and throat, for all her assurance.
Still he would not say anything.
“You see”—she was making an effort to explain—”_I_ had to understand
also.”
“And what does it amount to, this _understanding_?” he asked.
“A very great deal—does it not to you?” she replied. “One is free.”
“And you are not disappointed?”
“Far from it!” Her tone was deep and sincere.
“You love him?”
“Yes, I love him.”
“Good!” he said.
This silenced her for a while.
“Here, among his things, I love him,” she said.
His conceit would not let him be silent.
“It needs this setting?” he asked.
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