The Prussian OfficerLawrence, D. H. (David Herbert)
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The Prussian Officer
Lawrence, D. H. (David Herbert)
Fiction; Short stories
She turned swiftly. He was leaning against the small window of the
tiny, obscure room, and was watching her, who stood in the doorway,
still cloaked in her mantle. His cap was removed, so she saw his face
and head distinctly in the dim room. His black, straight, glossy hair
was brushed clean back from his brow. His black eyes were watching her,
and his face, that was clear and cream, and perfectly smooth, was
flickering.
“We are very different,” she said bitterly.
Again he laughed.
“I see you disapprove of me,” he said.
“I disapprove of what you have become,” she said.
“You think we might”—he glanced at the hut—“have been like this—you and
I?”
She shook her head.
“You! no; never! You plucked a thing and looked at it till you had
found out all you wanted to know about it, then you threw it away,” she
said.
“Did I?” he asked. “And could your way never have been my way? I
suppose not.”
“Why should it?” she said. “I am a separate being.”
“But surely two people sometimes go the same way,” he said.
“You took me away from myself,” she said.
He knew he had mistaken her, had taken her for something she was not.
That was his fault, not hers.
“And did you always know?” he asked.
“No—you never let me know. You bullied me. I couldn’t help myself. I
was glad when you left me, really.”
“I know you were,” he said. But his face went paler, almost deathly
luminous.
“Yet,” he said, “it was you who sent me the way I have gone.”
“I!” she exclaimed, in pride.
“You _would_ have me take the Grammar School scholarship—and you would
have me foster poor little Botell’s fervent attachment to me, till he
couldn’t live without me—and because Botell was rich and influential.
You triumphed in the wine-merchant’s offer to send me to Cambridge, to
befriend his only child. You wanted me to rise in the world. And all
the time you were sending me away from you—every new success of mine
put a separation between us, and more for you than for me. You never
wanted to come with me: you wanted just to send me to see what it was
like. I believe you even wanted me to marry a lady. You wanted to
triumph over society in me.”
“And I am responsible,” she said, with sarcasm.
“I distinguished myself to satisfy you,” he replied.
“Ah!” she cried, “you always wanted change, change, like a child.”
“Very well! And I am a success, and I know it, and I do some good work.
But—I thought you were different. What right have you to a man?”
“What do you want?” she said, looking at him with wide, fearful eyes.
He looked back at her, his eyes pointed, like weapons.
“Why, nothing,” he laughed shortly.
There was a rattling at the outer latch, and the keeper entered. The
woman glanced round, but remained standing, fur-cloaked, in the inner
doorway. Syson did not move.
The other man entered, saw, and turned away without speaking. The two
also were silent.
Pilbeam attended to his skins.
“I must go,” said Syson.
“Yes,” she replied.
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