So she sweeps, scrubs, cleans from morning until night; carefully
removes every trace of dust, follows her family with dust-pan and
brush, and at least looks reproachfully at the offender who does not
remove every trace of street or garden dirt from his shoes before
entering the house. She cleans so hard that she forgets that the real
object of cleaning is to make her family safe and comfortable. They may
be safe, but they are a long way from being comfortable, and she knows
no more comfort than they; cleanliness has become a fetich with her,
and some day, perhaps, she comes to her senses, finding herself chasing
the motes in a sunbeam, lest by chance they should rest upon her sacred
furniture.
If she then sits down to take stock of things, she finds that husband
and children almost dread to come home. However serene and happy they
may be before reaching the garden gate, or the apartment door, they
then become nervous and distrait. They look themselves over, to be
sure that nothing is amiss, for “mother is so particular.” An anxious
expression settles upon their faces, for, with their best endeavors,
they may have overlooked something that mother’s trained and suspicious
eye may note. The joy of life abates, and a sort of painful hush falls
upon things.
The average child cannot see that this condition grows out of
misdirected love and care; he sees no connection between it and his
well-being, but, if he thinks of it at all, he concludes that “the
house” counts for more with mother than anything else. Husband and
children unconsciously come to regard her as mainly a housekeeper, with
interests bounded by the four walls of the home. The very gifts they
make her are of a useful nature—“something for the house”—as if the
“house” were some special thing in her personal life but meant nothing
to them.
When the hungry heart of this woman pains her, she resents the
condition that she herself has created, but does not see the correct
remedy. Her husband and children have put her out of their inner lives;
they take their pleasures away from home, they find their confidantes
among outside friends. Who should share their thoughts and their
pleasures? she asks. Who has worked day and night for their comfort
and happiness as she has? And the chances are that she considers them
ungrateful and herself a martyr, when all the time she herself builds
the barrier between them and herself by striving to make them happy
in her way. That it is not their way, and so could not be in harmony
with the natural trend of things, does not once occur to her. As the
French say, “Madam costs herself too much.” She has not learned, and
may never learn, that the only way to make others happy is to love them
sincerely and unselfishly enough to allow them to be happy in their
own way.
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