But Matt felt that this fact must first be confided to those who were
nearest him; and how to shape it in terms that would convey the fact and
yet hide the repulsiveness he knew in it, was the question that teased
him all the way back to Vardley, like some tiresome riddle. He
understood why his love for Suzette Northwick must be grievous to his
father and mother; how embarrassing, how disappointing, how really in
some sort disastrous; and yet he felt that if there was anything more
sacred than another in the world for him, it was that love, he must be
true to it at whatever cost, and in every event, and he must begin by
being perfectly frank with those whom it would afflict, and confessing
to himself all its difficulties and drawbacks. He was not much afraid of
dealing with his father; they were both men, and they could look at it
from the man's point of view. Besides, his father really cared little
what people would say; after the first fever of disgust, if he did not
change wholly and favor it vehemently, he would see so much good in it
that he would be promptly and finally reconciled.
But Matt knew that his mother was of another make, and that the blow
would be much harder for her to bear; his problem was how to lighten it.
Sometimes he thought he had better not try to lighten it, but let it
fall at once, and trust to her affection and good sense for the rest.
But when he found himself alone with her that night, he began by making
play and keeping her beyond reach. He was so lost in this perverse
effort that he was not aware of some such effort on her part, till she
suddenly dropped it, and said, "Matt, there is something I wish to speak
to you about--very seriously."
His heart jumped into his throat, but he said "Well?" and she went on.
"Louise tells me that you think of bringing this young man down to the
shore with you when you come to see us next week."
"Maxwell? I thought the change might do him good; yes," said Matt, with
a cowardly joy in his escape from the worst he feared. He thought she
was going to speak to him of Suzette.
She said, "I don't wish you to bring him. I don't wish Louise to see him
again after she leaves this place--ever again. She is fascinated with
him."
"Fascinated?"
"I can't call it anything else. I don't say that she's in love; but
there's no question but she's allowed her curiosity to run wild, and her
fancy to be taken; the two strongest things in her--in most girls. I
want to break it all up."
"But do you think--"
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