Bildungsromans; Christian women saints -- Fiction; Egypt -- Fiction; Mary, of Egypt, Saint -- Fiction; Picaresque fiction
I imagined I could hear him talk like that in the interval between two
pinches of snuff, and I really did not know what to reply to such a
Christian speech. On the other hand, I thought in advance how puzzled I
should be to reply to M. d’Asterac when he inquired of me after news of
the Salamander. What could I say? How was I to avow my reserve and
my abstention without betraying my defiance and fear? And after all,
without being aware of it, I was curious to try the adventure. I am not
credulous. On the contrary I am marvellously inclined to doubt, and
by this inclination to brave common-sense, as well as evidence and
everything else. Of the strangest things that may be told me, I say to
myself, “Why not?” This “Why not?” wronged my natural intelligence in
sight of that globe. This “Why not?” pushed me towards credulity, and
it may be interesting to remark, on this occasion, to believe in nothing
means to believe in everything, and that the mind is not to be kept too
free and too vacant, for fear that commodities of extravagant form and
weight should enter by a loophole, commodities of a kind which could not
find room in minds reasonably and tolerably well furnished with belief.
And while, with my hand on the wax seal, I remembered what my mother had
narrated to me of the magic bottle, my “Why not?” whispered to me that
perhaps, after all, aerial fairies may be visible through the dust of
the sun. But as soon as this idea, having entered into my mind, began to
become easy therein, I found it to be odd, absurd and grotesque. Ideas,
when they impose themselves, very soon become impudent. But few are apt
to be better than pleasant passers-by; and, decidedly, this very one had
somehow an air of madness. During the time I asked myself, “Shall I open
it?” “Shall I not?” the seal, which I had held continuously between my
pressing fingers, broke suddenly in my hand, and the flagon was open.
I waited, I observed, I saw nothing, I felt nothing. And I was
disappointed, so much the hope of stepping out of nature is prone and
ready to glide into our souls! Nothing! Not even a vague or confused
illusion, an uncertain image! What I had foreseen occurred. What a
deception! I felt somewhat vexed. Reclined in my arm-chair I vowed to
myself, before all the black-haired Egyptians surrounding me, to close
my soul better in the future to the lies of the cabalists; and once more
recognised my dear teacher’s wisdom and resolved, like him, to be
guided by reason in all matters not connected with faith, Christian and
Catholic. Expecting the visit of a lady Salamander, what silliness! Is
it possible that Salamanders exist? But what is known about it, and “Why
not?”
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