Most true, what can you do, indeed, poor soul! whose greatest object for
all these years has been to shut out and darken the daylight truth,
which mocked your vain pretences? You could give charity and gentle
words--be thankful; your heart is alive in you because of these: but
what can you do in such a difficulty as this? where is your wisdom to
counsel, your strength to uphold? This grave girl stands before you,
sadly bearing her burden, without an effort to conceal from you that she
feels it hard to bear; but you, whose age is not grave, whose heart has
rejected experience, whose mind has refused to learn the kindly insight
of advancing years--shrink into yourself, poor aged butterfly; feel that
it is presumption to call yourself her counsellor, and say again--again,
with a tremble in your weakened voice, “What can I do for you?”
“Aunt, I apply to you,” said Menie Laurie; “I ask your help, when I
resolve to decide my future life according to my own will and conviction
of what is best. I have no one else to assist me. I apply to you.”
Miss Annie melted into a fit of feeble crying; her hands shook, her
ringlets drooped down lank about her cheeks. “I will do
anything--anything you like; tell me what to do, Menie--Menie, my dear
child.”
It was pitiful to see her distress. Menie, whom no one comforted, felt
her heart moved to comfort her.
“I will not grieve you much,” said Menie gently; “only I beg you to give
me your countenance when I see Randall--Mr Home. I want you to be as my
mother might have been in other circumstances; but I will not trouble
you much, aunt--I will not trouble you.”
Miss Annie could not stop her tears; she was very timid and afraid,
sobbing helplessly. “What will I do? what can I do? Oh, Menie, love, you
will make it up to-morrow;” for poor Miss Annie knew no way of
conquering grief except by flying out of its sight.
Menie led her back to the house tenderly. Menie had never known before
this necessity of becoming comforter, when she had so much need to be
comforted. It was best for her--it gave her all the greater command over
her own heart.
And to hear poor innocent July, in her own young unclouded joy--to hear
her unsuspicious mother at their breakfast-table--to have Randall’s name
cross her now and then like a sudden blow--Randall, Randall;--Menie knew
nothing of all these depths, nor how such sorrows come in battalions;
so, one by one, her inexperienced heart gained acquaintance with them
now,--gained acquaintance with that sorest of human truths, that it is
possible to love and to condemn--possible to part, and know that parting
is the best--yet withal to cling and cling, and hold, with the saddest
gripe of tenderness, the heart from which you part. Poor Menie! they
said she looked very dark and heavy; that last night’s exertions had
wearied her--it was very true.
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