Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction
The world is a mirror into which we gaze and see the reflection of
ourselves. So far to Peter it had been a foreground of small boys and
their sisters, with a background of occasional adult relatives. But now,
like a fledgling which has grown to strength lying snugly in its nest,
he had looked out and seen the leafy distance below him. His curiosity
was roused; the commonplace was a wonderland. What went on down there?
Where did the parent birds go, and how did they find their way back?
What was the meaning of this sun-and-shadow landscape that people called
“living”? Because he was young, when he looked out of the nest, the
distance below him seemed full of youngness. All that had happened up to
now, the collapse of Aunt Jehane's fortunes, the imprisonment of
Uncle Waffles, his father's problems and the marriage of Grace to her
policeman, were mere stories which he had heard reported. There was
a battle called life, going on somewhere, in which he had never
participated. He was tired of being told about it. He wanted to feel
the rush of wind under his outspread wings; this afternoon, in a gust of
vivid and personal experience, he thought he had felt it. What was
it? By what name should he call it? Because he was only fifteen, love
sounded too large a word. And yet----- If it wasn't love, what was it?
All along the dusty summer road, through the golden evening, as he
tricycled back to London, he argued with himself. Kay interrupted
occasionally and he answered, but his thoughts were elsewhere. They had
discovered the gray-built city of Reality, and went from door to door
tapping, demanding entrance. Ignorance had kept him unadventurous and
contented; his contentedness was breaking down--he was glad of it.
The urgent need was on him to explain creation and his presence in the
world. How were people born? Why did they marry? How did they get money?
The child's mind, like the philosopher's, goes back to fundamentals. All
this outward pageant which had passed before his eyes for fifteeen
years as a sight to be expected, had suddenly become packed with hidden
significance. What was the meaning of this being born, this getting
and spending, this disastrous and glorious loving, struggling and being
buried? There was no one to whom he dared go for an answer; he must find
the explanation within himself. In the isolation of that thought he
felt a great gulf opening between himself and his little sister, between
himself and everyone he loved. Whether he liked it or not, one day he
must grow into a man; he was elated and terrified by the certainty. And
all the while, set to the creaking music of the lumbering tricycle, one
word sung itself over and over, “Cherry, Cherry, Cherry.”
[Illustration: 0283]
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