Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction
He appeared to take no notice of her question. Picking up his pencil, he
went back to his sketching. Then, while he worked, glancing occasionally
to her face where the radiance of the sunshine fell against her profile,
“The great secret! It's hard to say. It's why we're here, and from where
we come, and where we go. It's the knowledge of life and the meaning
of death; it's everything that we call beauty. I see it in your face. I
paint it. How it came there, neither you nor I can say.”
Next day he set to work on canvas. The picture grew. It wasn't for
the picture that Kay went to him; it was for the things he said in the
loneliness, lifted high between the waste of tossing sea and restless
sky. He set her thinking; he made life more glad, more eager and,
because of its mystery, more poignant. The great secret! He didn't hope
to find it; but he told her of the men who had sought.
In telling her, he brought the soul into her eyes and set it down on
canvas. A young girl with blowy hair, perched among things ancient, her
white hands folded, patient for the future, with the pain of joy in her
wide child's eyes! That was what he painted.
And she--she was stirred by him. He gave her the freedom of his mind.
He treated her as a woman, teaching her knowledge and the sorrow of
knowledge--from all suspicion of which she had been guarded. She was as
much repelled as attracted by him; through him she learnt to love Harry.
She began to understand the suffering of love that is kept hungry. She
began to understand its urgency. At last she understood that such love
as Harry brought her must always stand first, sacrificing every other
affection. It was this that gave pain to her joy.
One day in early June, the man laid aside his brushes. “The last touch.
It's finished.”
He lifted her down very gently and watched her as she stood before it.
Clasping and unclasping her hands, she gazed at her own reflection with
an odd mixture of wonder and ecstacy. “But--but it's beautiful.”
He put his arm about her shoulder, speaking softly, “And so are you.”
“But not so beautiful.”
“More. I couldn't paint your voice.”
She stretched out her hands toward it. “Oh, I wish--I wish I could have
it.”
He tilted up her face. “Little English girl, it's yours. I did it for
you. You'll know now how you looked when your beauty dies.”
Tears came. It was like the world complaining against God's injustice.
“But I don't want it to die.”
He drew her head against him. “Kay--what an English name! Little Kay,
one thing will keep it alive.” She waited. “The great secret,” he
whispered; “it lies behind all life. For other people your beauty will
have vanished; a man who loves you will always see it.”
Before she was aware, he had touched her lips. If was as though he had
stained her purity.
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