The Railway Man and His ChildrenOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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The Railway Man and His Children
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
Children of the rich -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Forgery -- Fiction; Scotland -- Fiction; Social classes -- Fiction
telling her that whatever she did would be right, whether to stay in
town or to set up at once at Rosmore. He was not sure himself that he
did not look upon that suggestion of staying in town as a relief and
postponement for which he would be grateful. Yet what did a little time
matter, one way or another? Sooner or later the step would have to be
taken; the permanent household formed. Indeed, he felt that it would be
natural for the children to expect that their father should take them to
London, and let them see something of the world, which was a suggestion
at which he shivered more than ever.
Poor Rowland! being only an engineer, though a distinguished one, and a
man of the people, though risen to great wealth, and sometimes even
objected to in his own person as not a gentleman, it was very hard that
he should be thus sensitive to the breeding of his children, and feel
their imperfections as keenly as the most accomplished “smart” man could
have done. Perhaps had he not married and learned to see through
Evelyn’s eyes, this catastrophe might not have happened. And he had been
so long parted from the children that there was little real love, only
the vague instinct of partiality to counteract the shock: and that
instinct of partiality often makes everything worse, giving a double
clear-sightedness, and exigence of impossible perfection to the
unfortunate parent whose fatherhood is mortifying and miserable to him,
not a thing of pride but of shame. These were much too strong words to
use--but they were not too strong from Rowland’s point of view. The only
comfort he had was in his boy’s eyes, which were like his mother’s. And
even that thought was not without a pang, for it thrust upon him the
question whether the mother, had she lived, would not have been like
Jane. Had it been so, it was evident that Rowland himself would not have
been what he was. He would have stayed on in the foundry and become a
foreman, and perhaps in course of time would have ascended the social
scale to a house in the Sauchiehall Road: and his son would have been a
clerk in an office, and he himself would have been very proud to think
that Archie had friends who were “students” and was steady, and read
papers at the Debating Society. His brain seemed to whirl round as he
thought of all that which might have been. It is usually the better
things which might have happened to us that we think of under that
formula--but there is another side in this, as in all human matters.
And when Rowland thought what might have been the natural course of his
life had Mary lived, it gave him a giddiness which seemed to suspend all
his powers. Would it perhaps have been happier so? He would have been
very fond of his children, and proud to think that they were taking a
step above himself in the world--and Mary would have grown stout like
her sister, and would have had, perhaps, a rustling silken gown like
Jane’s, and produced with pride a bottle of port-wine and a bottle of
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