Domestic fiction; Family -- England -- Midlands -- Fiction; Midlands (England) -- Fiction
“Stop it,” she cried, “stop it, you little nuisances. Stop it!” She
called louder, and rapped the pane more sharply. Her voice was fierce
and imperative.
“Have more sense,” she cried.
“There, now they’re gone. Where have they gone, the silly things? What
will they say to each other? What will they say, my lambkin? They’ll
forget, won’t they, they’ll forget all about it, out of their silly
little heads, and their blue caps.”
After a moment, she turned her bright face to her husband.
“They were _really_ fighting, they were really fierce with each other!”
she said, her voice keen with excitement and wonder, as if she belonged
to the birds’ world, were identified with the race of birds.
“Ay, they’ll fight, will blue-caps,” he said, glad when she turned to
him with her glow from elsewhere. He came and stood beside her and
looked out at the marks on the snow where the birds had scuffled, and
at the yew trees’ burdened, white and black branches. What was the
appeal it made to him, what was the question of her bright face, what
was the challenge he was called to answer? He did not know. But as he
stood there he felt some responsibility which made him glad, but
uneasy, as if he must put out his own light. And he could not move as
yet.
Anna loved the child very much, oh, very much. Yet still she was not
quite fulfilled. She had a slight expectant feeling, as of a door half
opened. Here she was, safe and still in Cossethay. But she felt as if
she were not in Cossethay at all. She was straining her eyes to
something beyond. And from her Pisgah mount, which she had attained,
what could she see? A faint, gleaming horizon, a long way off, and a
rainbow like an archway, a shadow-door with faintly coloured coping
above it. Must she be moving thither?
Something she had not, something she did not grasp, could not arrive
at. There was something beyond her. But why must she start on the
journey? She stood so safely on the Pisgah mountain.
In the winter, when she rose with the sunrise, and out of the back
windows saw the east flaming yellow and orange above the green, glowing
grass, while the great pear tree in between stood dark and magnificent
as an idol, and under the dark pear tree, the little sheet of water
spread smooth in burnished, yellow light, she said, “It is here”. And
when, at evening, the sunset came in a red glare through the big
opening in the clouds, she said again, “It is beyond”.
Dawn and sunset were the feet of the rainbow that spanned the day, and
she saw the hope, the promise. Why should she travel any further?
Yet she always asked the question. As the sun went down in his fiery
winter haste, she faced the blazing close of the affair, in which she
had not played her fullest part, and she made her demand still: “What
are you doing, making this big shining commotion? What is it that you
keep so busy about, that you will not let us alone?”
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