Domestic fiction; Family -- England -- Midlands -- Fiction; Midlands (England) -- Fiction
The youth went pale. He hated these words. But he was like a gleaming,
bright pebble, something bright and inalterable. He did not think. He
sat there in his hard brightness, and did not speak.
“Have you mentioned it to your own mother?” asked Brangwen.
“No—I’ll tell her on Saturday.”
“You’ll go and see her?”
“Yes.”
There was a long pause.
“And what are you going to marry on—your pound a week?”
Again the youth went pale, as if the spirit were being injured in him.
“I don’t know,” he said, looking at his uncle with his bright inhuman
eyes, like a hawk’s.
Brangwen stirred in hatred.
“It needs knowing,” he said.
“I shall have the money later on,” said the nephew. “I will raise some
now, and pay it back then.”
“Oh ay!—And why this desperate hurry? She’s a child of eighteen, and
you’re a boy of twenty. You’re neither of you of age to do as you like
yet.”
Will Brangwen ducked his head and looked at his uncle with swift,
mistrustful eyes, like a caged hawk.
“What does it matter how old she is, and how old I am?” he said.
“What’s the difference between me now and when I’m thirty?”
“A big difference, let us hope.”
“But you have no experience—you have no experience, and no money. Why
do you want to marry, without experience or money?” asked the aunt.
“What experience do I want, Aunt?” asked the boy.
And if Brangwen’s heart had not been hard and intact with anger, like a
precious stone, he would have agreed.
Will Brangwen went home strange and untouched. He felt he could not
alter from what he was fixed upon, his will was set. To alter it he
must be destroyed. And he would not be destroyed. He had no money. But
he would get some from somewhere, it did not matter. He lay awake for
many hours, hard and clear and unthinking, his soul crystallizing more
inalterably. Then he went fast asleep.
It was as if his soul had turned into a hard crystal. He might tremble
and quiver and suffer, it did not alter.
The next morning Tom Brangwen, inhuman with anger spoke to Anna.
“What’s this about wanting to get married?” he said.
She stood, paling a little, her dark eyes springing to the hostile,
startled look of a savage thing that will defend itself, but trembles
with sensitiveness.
“I do,” she said, out of her unconsciousness.
His anger rose, and he would have liked to break her.
“You do—you do—and what for?” he sneered with contempt. The old,
childish agony, the blindness that could recognize nobody, the
palpitating antagonism as of a raw, helpless, undefended thing came
back on her.
“I do because I do,” she cried, in the shrill, hysterical way of her
childhood. “_You_ are not my father—my father is dead—_you_ are not my
father.”
She was still a stranger. She did not recognize him. The cold blade cut
down, deep into Brangwen’s soul. It cut him off from her.
“And what if I’m not?” he said.
But he could not bear it. It had been so passionately dear to him, her
“Father—Daddie.”
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