It was thus that he was interpreting Corona Baldwin's attitude. She had
recognized the transformation as a thing in process, and had been
interested in it as a human experiment. Though it was chiefly owing to
her beckoning that he had stepped out of the working ranks at the
construction camp, he felt that he had never measured up to her ideals,
and that her influence over him, so far as it was exerted consciously,
was as impersonal as that of the sun on a growing plant. She had wished
objectively to see the experiment succeed, and had been willing to use
such means as had come to hand to make it succeed. For this cause, he
concluded, with a curiously bitter taste in his mouth, her interest in
the human experiment was his best warrant for shutting the door upon his
love dream. Sentiment, the world over, has little sympathy with
laboratory processes, and the woman who loves does not apply acid tests
and call the object of her love a coward.
Letting the sting of the epithet have its full effect, he admitted that
he was a coward. He had lacked the finer quality of courage when he had
spirited Jibbey away, and he was lacking it again, now, in accepting the
defensive alliance with Verda Richlander. He had not shown himself at
the hotel since his return from the long drive with Starbuck, and the
reason for it was that he knew his relations with Verda had now become
an entanglement from which he was going to find it exceedingly difficult
to release himself. She had served him, had most probably lied for him;
and he assured himself, again with the bitter taste in his mouth, that
there would be a price to pay.
It is through such doors of disheartenment that temptation finds its
easiest entrance. For a dismal hour the old life, with its conventional
enjoyments and limitations, its banalities, its entire freedom from the
prickings of the larger ambitions and its total blindness on the side of
broadening horizons and higher ideals, became a thing most ardently to
be desired, a welcome avenue of escape from the toils and turmoils and
the growing-pains of all the metamorphoses. What if a return to it
should still be possible? What if, surrendering himself voluntarily, he
should go back to Lawrenceville and fight it out with Watrous Dunham in
the courts? Was there not more than an even chance that Dunham had
offered the large reward for his apprehension merely to make sure that
he would not return? Was it not possible that the thing the crooked
president least desired was an airing of his iniquitous business methods
in the courts?
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account