"Honest confession is good for the soul: I did," he boasted. "Now beat
that for frankness, if you can."
"I can't," she admitted, laughing back at him. "But now you've
accomplished your purpose, I hope you are not going to give up. That
would be a little hard on Colonel-daddy."
"Oh, no; I'm not going to give up--until I have to."
"Does that mean more than it says?"
"Yes, I'm afraid it does."
She was silent for the length of time that it took the flaming crimson
in the western sky to fade to salmon.
"I know I haven't earned the right to ask you any of the whys," she said
at the end of the little pause.
"Women like you--only there are not any more of them, I think--don't
have to earn things. The last time you were in the office you said
enough to let me know that you and your father and Williams--all of you,
in fact--suspect that I am out here under a cloud of some sort. It is
true."
"And that is why you say you won't give up until you have to?"
"That is the reason; yes."
There was another little interval of silence and then she said: "I
suppose you couldn't tell me--or anybody--could you?"
"I can tell you enough so that you will understand why I may not be
permitted to go on and finish what I have begun in Timanyoni High Line.
When I left home I thought I was a murderer."
He would not look at her to see how she was taking it, but he could not
help hearing her little gasp.
"_Oh!_" she breathed; and then: "You say you 'thought.' Wasn't it so?"
"It happened not to be. The man didn't die. I suppose I might say that I
didn't try to kill him; but that would hardly be true. At the moment, I
didn't care. Have you ever felt that way?--you know what I mean, just
utterly blind and reckless as to consequences?"
"I have a horrible temper, if that covers it."
"It's something like that," he conceded; "only, up to the moment when it
happened I hadn't known that I had any temper. Perhaps I might say that
the provocation was big enough, though the law won't say so."
The pink flush had faded out of the high western horizon and the stars
were coming out one at a time. The colonel had come up from the ranch
bunk-house where the men slept, and was smoking his long-stemmed
corn-cob pipe on the lawn under the spreading cottonwoods. Peace was the
key-note of the perfect summer night, and even for the man under the
shadow of the law there was a quiet breathing space.
"I don't believe you could ever kill a man in cold blood," said the
young woman in the hammock. "I'm sure you know that, yourself, and it
ought to be a comfort to you."
"It might have been once, but it isn't any more."
"Why not?"
"I suppose it is because I left a good many things behind me when I ran
away--besides the man I thought was dead. In that other life I never
knew what it meant to fight for the things I wanted; perhaps it was
because I never wanted anything very badly, or possibly it was because
the things I did want came too easily."
"They are not coming so easily now?"
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