Adventure stories, American; Fiction; Short stories
In short, weighted by his seventy years, in the vast and silent
loneliness of the North, Old Tarwater, as in the delirium of drug or
anæsthetic, recovered within himself, the infantile mind of the child-man
of the early world. It was in the dusk of Death’s fluttery wings that
Tarwater thus crouched, and, like his remote forebear, the child-man,
went to myth-making, and sun-heroizing, himself hero-maker and the hero
in quest of the immemorable treasure difficult of attainment.
Either must he attain the treasure—for so ran the inexorable logic of the
shadow-land of the unconscious—or else sink into the all-devouring sea,
the blackness eater of the light that swallowed to extinction the sun
each night . . . the sun that arose ever in rebirth next morning in the
east, and that had become to man man’s first symbol of immortality
through rebirth. All this, in the deeps of his unconsciousness (the
shadowy western land of descending light), was the near dusk of Death
down into which he slowly ebbed.
But how to escape this monster of the dark that from within him slowly
swallowed him? Too deep-sunk was he to dream of escape or feel the prod
of desire to escape. For him reality had ceased. Nor from within the
darkened chamber of himself could reality recrudesce. His years were too
heavy upon him, the debility of disease and the lethargy and torpor of
the silence and the cold were too profound. Only from without could
reality impact upon him and reawake within him an awareness of reality.
Otherwise he would ooze down through the shadow-realm of the unconscious
into the all-darkness of extinction.
But it came, the smash of reality from without, crashing upon his ear
drums in a loud, explosive snort. For twenty days, in a temperature that
had never risen above fifty below, no breath of wind had blown movement,
no slightest sound had broken the silence. Like the smoker on the opium
couch refocusing his eyes from the spacious walls of dream to the narrow
confines of the mean little room, so Old Tarwater stared vague-eyed
before him across his dying fire, at a huge moose that stared at him in
startlement, dragging a wounded leg, manifesting all signs of extreme
exhaustion; it, too, had been straying blindly in the shadow-land, and
had wakened to reality only just ere it stepped into Tarwater’s fire.
He feebly slipped the large fur mitten lined with thickness of wool from
his right hand. Upon trial he found the trigger finger too numb for
movement. Carefully, slowly, through long minutes, he worked the bare
hand inside his blankets, up under his fur _parka_, through the chest
openings of his shirts, and into the slightly warm hollow of his left
arm-pit. Long minutes passed ere the finger could move, when, with equal
slowness of caution, he gathered his rifle to his shoulder and drew bead
upon the great animal across the fire.
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