The Redemption of David CorsonGoss, Charles Frederic
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The Redemption of David Corson
Goss, Charles Frederic
Society of Friends -- Fiction
"It must be true," he was saying. "It accounts for the strange feeling I
had toward him when he asked me to help him do that infernal deed. I
could not understand it then, but it is plain enough now. He is my son!
And I have not only transmitted a tainted life to him, but helped to
damn him in its possession! God! what irony! Of course the quack never
knew that I, too, am living under a false name! I wonder if it is too
late to stop him? Yes--it's done, and he is miles away! It's almost
daybreak now! Whewwwh! It's horrible!"
He dashed his clenched fist on the railing of the vessel. While he stood
there, his mind ran back into the past. He lived over again those
passionate days when he had won and betrayed a young, beautiful,
impressionable girl. His heart beat with a swifter stroke as he
remembered the excitement of their hurried flight from her parents, and
the wild joy of their adventurous lives, and then sank again to its
steady, hopeless throb as he recalled her penitence and misery after the
birth of the boy, his consenting to marry her, the ceremony, the respite
from self-reproach, the few happy months, the relapse into old bad
habits, the sobered mother becoming a devout and faithful member of a
Quaker church, his disgust at this, his quarrels with her and finally
his desertion of her. And then the whole subsequent series of adventures
and disasters passed before him--a moving panorama of dishonor and
crime! He paced the deck again; then he paused and leaned over the
gunwale, listening to the water lapping the sides of the vessel. Nothing
could have been more astonishing to him than the sudden activity of his
conscience. It had been so long since he had experienced remorse that he
believed himself incapable of it. But suddenly a fierce and unendurable
pang seized him. To a man who had been long accustomed to feeling
nothing in the contemplation of his deeds, but a dull consciousness of
unworthiness, this sharp and terrible attack of shame and guilt was
startling indeed. He could not understand it. The pain seemed
disproportionate to the sin; but he could not resist the repugnance and
horror with which it filled him! And this is an element in the moral
life with which bad men forget to deal! Because conscience ceases to
remonstrate and remorse to torment, they think the exemption permanent.
They do not know that at any moment, in some unforeseen emergency--this
abused faculty of the soul may spring into renewed life. This elemental
power, this primal endowment, can no more be permanently dissociated
from the soul than heat from fire! It may smoulder unobserved, but a
breath will fan it into flame! Without it, the soul would cease to be a
soul; its permanent eradication would be equivalent to annihilation! If
conscience can be eliminated, man has nothing to brag of over a
tadpole! We are no more safe from it than from memory! Who can be sure
that what he has forgotten has ceased to survive? The sweet perfume of a
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