“And I am not _wholly_ living under false colors,” he went on,
anxiously. “I have confessed the worst to my employer, and he is doing
all he can to help me. He trusts me. I don't like to say these things in
my own behalf, and yet surely you will forgive me for saying that I am,
at least, not living as I used to live.”
“You intend to make--make reparation?” she said, raising an awful glance
to his face.
“Of course. I have sent back all my savings so far--every dollar I could
get together; and before another year is past I hope to send enough, at
least, to--”
“Money!” she cried, almost in a tone of disgust--and as she spoke she
had a picture of a golden-haired child with a sunny face playing on the
lawn at her home--“money! As if that would count in a matter like--like
_that!_”
“It is all I can do now, Margaret!” he exclaimed, as he shrank under the
unexpected severity of her words.
“I presume so,” she answered, coldly, even sternly, and she fixed an
unreadable stare on his blighted face; “and yet if you could be back
at home, and see what I have seen, perhaps you'd realize that there are
things mere money cannot restore. I can't blame you wholly--to save my
life, I can't! The temptation was deliberately put in your track;
you were not born with the power to resist, and so you fell like many
another man has fallen, but you ought to have stayed on at Stafford and
done your duty--your _full_ duty!”
“I couldn't! I assure you, I _couldn't_, Margaret!” he went on, almost
piteously, his lips quivering under stress of the vast emotion let
loose within him. “My father would have punished me by law--would have
deprived me of every chance to atone in the way that I am now trying
to atone. But I have no right to talk to you this way. I am breaking
my promise to Wynn. By my own act, I have banished myself from you
forever.”
“Yes, forever!” she admitted, as her proud head went down. “There is
nothing either of us can do. We must try not to meet again, even by
accident. I must join Mrs. Marston now. I hear her in the corridor. You
are very pale, and she might wonder and imagine all sorts of things. I'd
have to introduce you, and I can't even remember your--your new name. I
will tell no one at home that I have seen you. You may trust that to me.
Your secret is safe. I can't recall the name of the place you live in. I
sha'n't try. I never have believed it was _all_ your fault--that is, not
_all_. Good-bye.”
“Good-bye,” he repeated, huskily; and he saw her rise, and, without
extending her hand, or giving him another glance, she moved unsteadily
toward the door.
When she was gone he sat down at the desk and took up his pen, and with
an inanimate hand began to address one of his letters, wondering dumbly
that such mere details as a street and number and a man's initials could
rise to his memory at such a moment.
That evening, in the big drawing-room at the Marstons', General
Sylvester sat down by his niece.
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