“I think I'd better, maybe,” acquiesced Lionel. “Well, be careful,”
Galt warned him, as he turned on the two streams of water and tested the
blending temperature.
“I really can't unbutton this collar behind,” Lionel said, with a touch
of manly shame over the confession. “My mother always does it. She has
never let me learn. I am big enough, gracious knows!”
“Wait, let me undress you!” the father said, as he hastily dried his
hands.
“I wish you would, if you'll be so kind,” Lionel said, in a tone of
reliance, which somehow reached an hitherto untouched fount of feeling
in the breast of his companion.
As the child stood before him, Galt, with throbbing pulse and reverent
fingers, found himself doing the duties of a mother to his offspring.
The flowing necktie and collar were removed; next the blouse and
underbody. Then a vision of inexplicable and awe-inspiring beauty
greeted the senses of the beholder, as the symetrical form, a veritable
poem in flesh and blood, stood bared to his sight. He laid the still
unsoiled garments on a chair, and lifted the boy in his arms to put him
into the water. The warm, smooth cheek touched his own; a tingling throb
of paternity--of starving, yearning fatherhood--shot through him as he
held the boy across his arms like a baby and lowered him slowly to the
water.
“Look out, I'll duck you!” he said, jestingly, and the boy replied with
a ringing laugh which held no hint of fear.
In the water the child lay with his face smilingly upturned.
“Ugh!” he exclaimed, “it feels good. This tub is big enough to swim
in--a little bit, anyway. Will you show me how to swim some day?”
“Yes, my son--yes, Lionel, some day, perhaps.”
“In _deep_ water--in a really-really stream that fish swim in?”
“Yes, Lionel.”
“Oh, that would be so nice! Couldn't we catch fish, too?”
“I think so--yes, of course, some day, perhaps.”
But would those delights, conceived for the first time to-day, ever be
realized? Galt asked himself, as keen pangs from some unknown source
darted through him. Sick unto death of the vapid adulation of narrow men
and women, would he ever experience the transcendental joy of intimate
and daily companionship with this human wonder, such as other fathers
enjoyed with their sons?
No, the question was already answered. The bliss--the queer,
Heaven-tending bliss of the present moment--was merely stolen. Was it
likely that any son at all would ever come to him--a son which he could
father in the broadest, holiest sense? No; and he started and fell to
quivering superstitiously. Even if he were married and another son was
given to him in lawful wedlock, could he dare--in the face of Infinite
Justice--dare to put _that_ child forward, acknowledge _that_ child as
his own, while _deserting, ignoring, denying_ Lionel?
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