“Yes, Dora, to be my wife before the world, as you have been in God's
sight all these years. I am willing to crawl in the dust at your feet.
You are far above me. You were that when I blindly deserted you, and I
can never be worthy of your forgiveness, but I would die for a chance to
serve you.”
“How sad it all is!” she sighed, her glance on the ground. “What a mere
blown-about straw I have been! What a grim thing for a proud woman to
decide! You deserted me once to save a paltry sum of money--a worldly
ambition; you want me back to _save your soul_--that expresses it,
Kenneth. But I can't consent. I am simply human--and a woman. My pride
won't let me--the pride that every woman has who holds herself erect.
You sold yourself once, and you are now asking me to do the same. Your
price was a successful railroad and the plaudits of a few people--the
price paid to me would be the future welfare of my child. I am expected
to salve the wounds of a torn and mangled womanhood with the realization
that I am providing for my boy. There is no pain keener than the fear
that one's offspring may suffer what we ourselves have been through, and
I'd give my soul to see Lionel happy in the time to come, but I can't
bring it about in the way you ask. I simply can't! I loved you, Kenneth,
before that unspeakable cloud fell between us, but I was only a girl
then, and during all the years that have passed since I have given
you no place at all in my heart. We are, in fact, meeting to-day as
strangers.”
“I know. I know it is true so far as it touches _you_,” he said, with a
deep sigh, “for your love died with your respect for me, but my love
has never died, Dora. I smothered it for a time, in my mad ambition, but
there was no act of yours to weaken it, and so it lived and grew till it
has overpowered me. I love you now, strange as it may sound to you, ten
thousand times more than I ever did. You may turn from me with a shudder
and as a thing to be loathed; but I shall never cease to watch over you
and strive to protect you.”
“I can't say any more,” she said, as she tied the tape round her
portfolio and gathered up her pencils. “I don't want to pain you; but
I can't do what you ask, even--even for Lionel's sake. He and I and
his granny _may_ go to Paris some day, but we don't want you with us,
Kenneth. I want to leave absolutely _everything_ behind. You must be
dead to us; there is no other way--no other possible way.”
He turned his fixed gaze away, that she might not see the look of agony
which had overspread his face. She sat still and silent for several
minutes; then he saw her draw herself up excitedly, look about
anxiously, and rise to her feet.
“Oh, where is Lionel?” she cried. “He was there in the bushes when you
came. Oh, he may have wandered off and be lost! There are some very
dangerous places along the river-bank!”
“I see him! Don't be alarmed!” Galt said, indicating a spot beyond a
clump of bushes. “He's all right; I'll bring him to you.”
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