Nationalists -- Philippines -- Fiction; Philippine fiction (Spanish) -- Translations into English; Philippines -- History -- Fiction
“Within a few days,” he murmured, “when on all sides that accursed city
is burning, den of presumptuous nothingness and impious exploitation of
the ignorant and the distressed, when the tumults break out in the
suburbs and there rush into the terrorized streets my avenging hordes,
engendered by rapacity and wrongs, then will I burst the walls of your
prison, I will tear you from the clutches of fanaticism, and my white
dove, you will be the Phoenix that will rise from the glowing embers! A
revolution plotted by men in darkness tore me from your side—another
revolution will sweep me into your arms and revive me! That moon,
before reaching the apogee of its brilliance, will light the
Philippines cleansed of loathsome filth!”
Simoun, stopped suddenly, as though interrupted. A voice in his inner
consciousness was asking if he, Simoun, were not also a part of the
filth of that accursed city, perhaps its most poisonous ferment. Like
the dead who are to rise at the sound of the last trumpet, a thousand
bloody specters—desperate shades of murdered men, women violated,
fathers torn from their families, vices stimulated and encouraged,
virtues mocked, now rose in answer to the mysterious question. For the
first time in his criminal career, since in Havana he had by means of
corruption and bribery set out to fashion an instrument for the
execution of his plans—a man without faith, patriotism, or
conscience—for the first time in that life, something within rose up
and protested against his actions. He closed his eyes and remained for
some time motionless, then rubbed his hand over his forehead, tried to
be deaf to his conscience, and felt fear creeping over him. No, he must
not analyze himself, he lacked the courage to turn his gaze toward his
past. The idea of his courage, his conviction, his self-confidence
failing him at the very moment when his work was set before him! As the
ghosts of the wretches in whose misfortunes he had taken a hand
continued to hover before his eyes, as if issuing from the shining
surface of the river to invade the room with appeals and hands extended
toward him, as reproaches and laments seemed to fill the air with
threats and cries for vengeance, he turned his gaze from the window and
for the first time began to tremble.
“No, I must be ill, I can’t be feeling well,” he muttered. “There are
many who hate me, who ascribe their misfortunes to me, but—”
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