The Restless SexChambers, Robert W. (Robert William)
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The Restless Sex
Chambers, Robert W. (Robert William)
American fiction -- 20th century
Steve, I have asked him to spend July with us. He seemed quite
surprised and a little disconcerted by the invitation—just as he seemed
to be when I asked him to do the pool and fountain.
He said he would like to come if he could arrange it—whatever that may
mean. So it was left that way.
Do you approve?
It will be wonderful to see you here, moving in the garden, standing out
yonder on the lawn!—Steve, herself, in her own actual and matchless
person!—Steve in the flesh, here under the green old trees of Runner’s
Rest.... Sometimes when I am thinking of you—and I think of practically
nothing else!—I seem to see you as you were when last here—a girl in
ribbons and white, dancing over the lawn with her chestnut hair flying;
or down by the river at the foot of the lawn, wading bare-legged,
fussing and poking about among the stones; or lying full-length on the
grass under the trees, reading "Quentin Durward"—do you remember? And I
used to take you trout-fishing to that mysterious Dunbar Brook up in the
forest, where the rush of ice-cold waters and the spray clouding the
huge round bowlders always awed you and made you the slightest bit
uneasy.
And do you remember the brown pools behind those bowlders, where you
cautiously dropped your line; and the sudden scurry of a black shadow in
the pool—the swift tug, the jerk and spatter as you flung a speckled
trout skyward in mingled joy and consternation?
Runner’s Rest has not changed. House and barns need paint; the garden
requires your soft white hands to caress it into charming discipline;
the house needs you; the lawns are empty without you; the noise of the
river rippling on the shoals sounds lonely. The whole place needs you,
Steve, to make it logical. And so do I. Because all this has no
meaning unless the soul of it shows through.
When I am perplexed, restless, impatient, unhappy, I try to remember
that you have given me a bit of your heart; that you realize you have
mine entire—every atom of my love, my devotion.... There must be some
way for us.... I don’t know what way, because you have thought it
necessary to leave me blind. But I shall never give you up—unless you
find that you care more for another man.
And now to answer what you have said concerning you and me. I suppose I
ought to touch what is, theoretically, another man’s. Yet, you do not
belong to him. And you have begun to fall a little in love with me,
haven’t you? And in this incomprehensible pact it was agreed that you
retain your liberty until you came to final decision within two years.
I don’t understand it; I can’t feel that, under the strange
circumstances, I am unfair to you or to this strange and unexplained
enigma named Oswald Grismer.
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