Fantasy fiction; Horror tales; Paranormal fiction; Supernatural -- Fiction
It was a quiet supper the three friends sat down to. Herbert sat
narrowing his eyes over his thoughts, which, when the fancy took him,
he scattered out upon the others’ silence. Lawford apparently had not
yet shaken himself free from the sorcery of the moonlight. His eyes
shone dark and full like those of a child who has trespassed beyond its
hour for bed, and sits marvelling at reality in a waking dream.
Long after they had bidden each other good-night, long after Herbert
had trodden on tiptoe with his candle past his closed door, Lawford sat
leaning on his arms at the open window, staring out across the
motionless moonlit trees that seemed to stand like draped and dreaming
pilgrims, come to the peace of their Nirvana at last beside the
crashing music of the waters. And he himself, the self that never
sleeps beneath the tides and waves of consciousness, was listening,
too, almost as unmovedly and unheedingly to the thoughts that clashed
in conflict through his brain.
Why, in a strange transitory life was one the slave of these small
cares? What if even in that dark pit beneath, which seemed to whisper
Lethe to the tumultuous, swirling waters—what if there, too, were
merely a beginning again, and to seek a slumbering refuge there merely
a blind and reiterated plunge into the heat and tumult of another day?
Who was that poor, dark, homeless ghoul, Sabathier? Who was this Helen
of an impossible dream? Her face with its strange smile, her eyes with
their still pity and rapt courage had taken hope away. ‘Here’s not your
rest,’ cried one insistent voice; ‘she is the mystery that haunts day
and night, past all the changing of the restless hours. Chance has
given you back eyes to see, a heart that can be broken. Chance and the
stirrings of a long-gone life have torn down the veil age spins so
thick and fast. Pride and ambition; what dull fools men are! Effort and
duty, what dull fools men are!’ He listened on and on to these phantom
pleadings and to the rather coarse old Lawford conscience grunting them
mercilessly down, too weary even to try to rest.
Rooks at dawn came sweeping beneath the turquoise of the sky. He saw
their sharp-beaked heads turn this way, that way, as they floated on
outspread wings across the misty world. Except for the hoarse roar of
the water under the huge thin-leafed trees, not a sound was stirring.
‘One thing,’ he seemed to hear himself mutter as he turned with a
shiver from the morning air, ‘it won’t be for long. You can, at least,
poor devil, wait the last act out.’ If in this foolish hustling mob of
the world, hired anywhere and anywhen for the one poor dubious wage of
a penny—if it was only his own small dull part to carry a mock spear,
and shout huzza with the rest—there was nothing for it, he grunted
obstinately to himself, shout he would with the loudest.
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