Fantasy fiction; Horror tales; Paranormal fiction; Supernatural -- Fiction
Herbert sat round in his chair. ‘You see, Lawford, the very term is
little else than Double-Dutch to me. As a matter of fact Grisel sends
all my hush-money to the horrible people that do the cleaning up, as it
were. I can’t catch their drift. Government to me is merely the
spectacle of the clever, or the specious, managing the dull. It deals
merely with the physical, and just the fringe of consciousness. I am
not joking. I think I follow you. All I mean is that the
obligations—mainly tepid, I take it—that are luring you back to the
fold would be the very ones that would scare me quickest off. The
imagination, the appeal faded: we’re dead.’
Lawford opened his mouth; ‘_Temporarily_ tepid,’ he at last all but
coughed out.
‘Oh yes, of course,’ said Herbert intelligently. ‘Only temporarily.
It’s this beastly gregariousness that’s the devil. The very thought of
it undoes me—with an absolute shock of sheepishness. I suddenly realise
my human nakedness: that here we are, little better than naked animals,
bleating behind our illusory wattles on the slopes of—of infinity. And
nakedness, after all, is a wholesome thing to realize only when one
thinks too much of one’s clothes. I peer sometimes, feebly enough, out
of my wool, and it seems to me that all these busybodies, all these
fact-devourers, all this news-reading rabble, are nothing brighter than
very dull-witted children trying to play an imaginative game, much too
deep for their poor reasons. I don’t mean that _your_ wanting to go
home is anything gregarious, but I do think _their_ insisting on your
coming back at once might be. And I know you won’t visit this stuff on
me as anything more than just my “scum,” as Grisel calls the fine
flower of my maiden meditations. All that I really _want_ to say is
that we should both be more than delighted if you’d stay just as long
as it will not be a bore for you to stay. Stay till you’re heartily
tired of us. Go back now, if you _must_; tell them how much better you
are. Bolt off to a nerve specialist. He’ll say complete rest—change of
scene, and all that. They all do. Instinct via intellect. And why not
take your rest here? We are such miserably dull company to one another
it would be a greater pleasure to have you with us than I can say. I
mean it from the very bottom of my heart. Do!’
Lawford listened. ‘I wish—,’ he began, and stopped dead again. ‘Anyhow,
I’ll go back. I am afraid, Herbert, I’ve been playing truant. It was
all very well while—To tell you the truth I can’t think _quite_
straight yet. But it won’t last for ever. Besides—well, anyhow, I’ll go
back.’
‘Right you are,’ said Herbert, pretending to be cheerful. ‘You can’t
expect, you really can’t, everything to come right straight away. Just
have patience. And now, let’s go out and sit in the sun. They’ve mixed
September up with May.’
And about half an hour afterwards he glanced up from his book to find
his visitor fast asleep in his garden chair.
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