The Revolution in Tanner's LaneWhite, William Hale
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The Revolution in Tanner's Lane
White, William Hale
England -- Fiction; Religious fiction
Zachariah had much to say. During the whole of the four hours before
bedtime he did not once feel that drying-up of conversation which used to
be so painful to him. It is true she herself said little or nothing, but
that was of no moment. She was strengthless, and he did not expect her
to talk. So long as he could speak he was happy. The next morning came,
and with it came Hope, as it usually came to him in the morning, and he
kissed her with passionate fervour as he went out, rejoicing to think
that, although she was so feeble, she was recovering; that he could once
more look forward as in earlier days, to the evening, and forgetting
every cloud which had ever come between them. Alas, when the night of
that very day came he found his little store exhausted, and he and the
companion of his life sat together for a quarter of an hour or more
without speaking a word. He proposed reading a book, and took up the
Ferguson, thinking he could extract from it something which might
interest her; but she was so irresponsive, and evidently cared so little
for it, that he ceased. It was but eight o’clock, and how to fill up the
time he did not know. At last he said he would just take a turn outside
and look at the weather. He went out and stood under the stars of which
he had been reading. The meeting, after such a separation, was scarcely
twenty-four hours old, and yet he felt once more the old weariness and
the old inability to profit by her society or care for it. He wished, or
half wished, that there might have existed such differences between them
that they could have totally disregarded or even hated one another. The
futility, however, of any raving was soon perfectly clear to him. He
might as well have strained at a chain which held him fast by the leg,
and he therefore strove to quiet himself. He came back, after being
absent longer than he intended and found she was upstairs. He sat down
and meditated again, but came to no conclusion, for no conclusion was
possible. The next evening, after they had sat dumb for some moments, he
said, “My dear; you don’t seem well.”
“I am not well, as you know. You yourself don’t seem well.”
He felt suddenly as if he would have liked to throw himself on his knees
before her, and to have it all out with her; to say to her all he had
said to himself; to expose all his misery to her; to try to find out
whether she still loved him; to break or thaw the shell of ice which
seemed to have frozen round her. But he could not do it. He was on the
point of doing it, when he looked at her face, and there was something in
it which stopped him. No such confidence was possible, and he went back
into himself again.
“Shall I read to you?”
“Yes, if you like.”
“What shall I read?”
“I don’t care; anything you please.”
“Shall it be Cook’s Voyages?”
“I have just said I really do not care.”
He took down the Cook’s Voyages; but after about ten minutes he could not
go on and he put it back in its place.
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