Antisemitism -- Fiction; Jews -- Austria -- Fiction; Middle class -- Fiction; Vienna (Austria) -- Fiction
The lights were extinguished, the prelude to the third act began.
George heard the tired sea-waves surging against the desolate beach
and the grievous sighs of a mortally wounded hero were wafted through
the blue thin air. Where had he heard this last? Hadn't it been in
Munich...? No, it couldn't be so far back. And he suddenly remembered
the hour when the sheets of the _Tristan_ music had been spread open
before him on a balcony beneath a wooden gable. A sunny path opposite
ran to the churchyard between field and forest, while a cross had
flashed with its golden light; down in the house a woman he loved
had groaned in agony and he had felt sick at heart. And yet this
memory, too, had its own melancholy sweetness, like all else that had
completely passed. The balcony, the little blue angel between the
flowers, the white seat under the pear-tree, where was it all now? He
would see the house again once more, once more before he left Vienna.
The curtain rose. The shawm rang out yearningly beneath the pale
expanse of an unsympathetic heaven. The wounded hero slumbered in
the shade of the linden branches, and by his head watched Kurwenal
the faithful. The shawm was silent, the herdsman bent questioningly
over the wall and Kurwenal made answer. By Jove, that was a voice of
unusual timbre! If we only had a baritone like that, thought George.
And many other things, too, which we need! If he were only given the
requisite power he felt himself able, in the course of time, to turn
the modest theatre at which he worked into a first-class stage. He
dreamed of model performances to which people would stream from far
and wide. He no longer sat there as an envoy, but as a man to whom it
was perhaps vouchsafed to be himself a leader in not too distant days.
Further and higher coursed his hopes. Perhaps just a few years--and
his own original harmonies would be ringing through a spacious hall of
a musical festival, and the audience would be listening as thrilled
as the one to-day, while somewhere outside a hollow reality would be
flowing impotently past. Impotently? That was the question. Did he
know whether it was given him to compel human beings by his art as it
had been given to the master to whom they were listening to-day--to
triumph over the difficulty, wretchedness and awfulness of everyday
life? Impatience and doubt tried to rise out of his soul; but his will
and common-sense quickly banished them and he now felt again the pure
happiness he always experienced when he heard beautiful music, without
thinking of the fact that he often wished himself to do creative work
and obtain recognition for doing it.
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