"Yes," replied Lord Sandilands, "like him in face and in character,
but of a milder temper. Mark Challoner was very hot-tempered in his
youth, quick, and impatient. Miles is more like his mother in his
ways. She was a very sweet woman, and a terrible loss to her husband."
It was a relief to them to have thus slipped into an easy and familiar
mention of him whose name had been for so long unspoken between them.
"Have you heard of Miles lately, father?" said Gertrude quietly, and
without removing her eyes from Lord Sandilands' face.
"I am very glad you have asked me, my dear," replied her father. "I
did not like to talk of Miles to you until you should mention him
first. I have heard from him lately, and I don't like the tone in
which he writes about himself."
"Is he ill?" said Gertrude, with quick alarm in her face and in her
voice.
"No, not at all; but he is thoroughly discontented and unhappy. He has
tried his very best and hardest to live the life of a moral English
squire at Rowley, but he cannot do it; he has no heart for it; and I
should not be surprised any day to hear that he had given up the
useless attempt. He has not forgotten you, Gertrude; and he cannot
forget you."
"I am glad of that," she said in the same calm tone. "I suppose I
ought to say otherwise; but it would not be true, and I cannot say it.
I deceived him, and was forced to disappoint him, and bring a great
cross on his life; but I _cannot_ say that I should be glad to know he
had forgotten me, and had found elsewhere the happiness he thought he
might have had with me."
"I am glad you speak so frankly to me," said Lord Sandilands, laying
his hand tenderly on the shining bands of Gertrude's dark-brown hair.
"I have been thinking a great deal about you and Miles Challoner; and
I should like to know exactly how you feel about him."
The answer was very plainly to be read in her face, but Gertrude did
not hesitate to give it in words.
"There is no change in my feelings for him, father," she said. "I
shall never cease to love him."
"Would you marry him, Gertrude, if he came to ask you, though your
marriage should involve your relinquishing all connexion with England,
breaking entirely, even more completely than we have done, with old
associations, and making quite a new life in a new country for
yourselves? Don't start, my dear, and look so agitated; he has not
told me to ask you this. You are not required to give a decision. I
have asked you for my own satisfaction, because I want to know."
"I would marry him," Gertrude answered, "to go to the other end of the
world with him, if it did not mean parting with you--but that can
never be--without a scruple, without a regret, without a fear. But he
could not marry me--have I not deceived him?--even supposing he cared
for me now as he once did. No, no, that is over and I must not repine,
blest as my life is far above my deserts."
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