I got down at the beginning of the avenue, and took the short way
through the park to my quarters. Entering a dim alley, I heard a faint
sound of voices and approaching footsteps, and saw vaguely in the
darkness two shadowy figures. It was late enough to justify me in
stepping into a clump of trees, to watch these nocturnal wanderers.
They passed slowly in front of me. I recognised Mlle. Hélouin; she was
leaning on M. de Bévallan’s arm. At this moment the sound of the
carriage alarmed them; they shook hands and separated hurriedly, Mlle.
Hélouin going towards the château, the other to the woods.
In my own room, fresh from my adventure, I asked myself indignantly
whether I was to allow M. de Bévallan to carry on his double love affair
uninterrupted, and to let him find a _fiancée_ and a mistress in the
same house. I am too much a man of my age and time to feel the
Puritan’s horror of certain weaknesses, and I am not hypocrite enough to
affect what I do not feel. But I believe that the morality which is
easiest and most indulgent in this respect, still demands some degree of
dignity, self-respect, and delicacy. Even in these devious ways a man
must walk straight to some extent. The real excuse of love is that it
_is_ love. But M. de Bévallan’s catholic tendernesses exclude all
possibility of self-forgetful passion. Such love-affairs are not even
sins; they are something altogether lower in the moral scale; they are
but the calculations and the wagers of brutalized horse-dealers.
The various incidents of this evening, combined to convince me, that
this man was utterly unworthy of the hand and heart he dared to covet.
Such a union would be monstrous. But I saw at once, that I should not
be able to prevent it by using the weapons that chance had put into my
hands. The best of objects does not justify base methods, and nothing
can excuse the informer. This marriage will take place, and heaven will
permit one of its noblest creatures to fall into the arms of a
cold-hearted libertine. It will permit that profanation. Alas, it
allows so many others!
I tried to imagine how this young girl could have chosen this man, by
what process of false reasoning she had come to prefer him to all
others. I think I have guessed. M. de Bévallan is very rich; he brings
a fortune nearly equal to the one he acquires. That is a kind of
guarantee; he could do without this additional wealth; he is assumed to
be more disinterested than others, because he is better off.
How foolish an argument! What a terrible mistake to estimate people’s
venality by the amount of their wealth! In nine cases out of ten,
opulence increases greed! The most self-seeking are not the poorest!
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