Iris, many of whose friends had long since indulged their sense of
pleasure as it pleased them, or as it displeased others, had never but
given an inquiring side-glance to that life; and had been forced to
admit to herself that she must lack some essential _verve_, for she had
found as little entertainment in, say, an absinthe at the Café Royal
in the company of, presumably, artists, as in the noisy dinners that
are sometimes given by Argentines and other rich men to women whose
jewels, at least, led Iris to suppose that it must be worth their while
to attend them. It was at the only one of these dinners that she had
ever gone to that an American millionaire, a fussy little man of an
engaging candour, had straight away offered to give her a Rolls-Royce,
and she had only succeeded in dissuading him from that intention by
revealing that her mother already had a quite adequate car. Thus young
was it revealed to Iris that she would make an inefficient kind
of cocotte. She was always, she had once told me rather brazenly,
conscious of a disturbing sense of laughter which, she was sure, would
tiresomely interfere with her enjoyment of any of those indiscretions
and adventures in which some of her acquaintance would now and then
indulge; and also, had never found any reason to think otherwise of
life round about studios and the like than as really a rather tedious
affair, of a kind of anæmia and uncleanliness--the kind, you know,
that can be cleaner without costing another half-penny--that caused in
her no more and no less than a vivid feeling of self-consciousness;
about which she bitterly reproached herself, for it was difficult to
be rid of an idea that she ought to be a little, well, humble before
these young men who were, after all, trying to do _something_. Nor did
protracted meals and cigarettes and liqueurs in grimy restaurants round
about Soho and Fitzroy Street with young men more or less just down
from Oxford "and pretty far down at that," appeal to her as anything
but a wearisome duty to that side of her mind which, so some of her
friends always urged, "must surely be sick of the boredom and mental
inertia of the life she led." ... But she had honestly done her best,
had vividly plunged into both alternatives; and, thank Heavens, had
emerged unscathed, with but an offer of an "automobile" and several
of marriage--not of course from the millionaire, who very genuinely
implied that he respected her too really to ask that much, but from
the young invertebrates. There seems, she had long since concluded,
to be much nonsense talked about the unfair advantages that rich men
take, for after all they are prepared to pay very reasonably for one's
virginity, whereas those young men have the cheek to ask for one's
lifetime in exchange for their devastating passions.
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