Lieutenant Réal had spoken the truth. While in Toulon he had more than
once said to himself that he could never go back to that fatal
farmhouse. His mental state was quite pitiable. Honour, decency, every
principle, forbade him to trifle with the feelings of a poor creature
with her mind darkened by a very terrifying, atrocious and, as it were,
guilty experience. And suddenly he had given way to a base impulse and
had betrayed himself by kissing her hand! He recognized with despair
that this was no trifling, but that the impulse had come from the very
depths of his being. It was an awful discovery for a man who on emerging
from boyhood had laid for himself a rigidly straight line of conduct
amongst the unbridled passions and the clamouring falsehoods of
revolution which seemed to have destroyed in him all capacity for the
softer emotions. Taciturn and guarded, he had formed no intimacies.
Relations he had none. He had kept clear of social connections. It was
in his character. At first he visited Escampobar because when he took
his leave he had no place in the world to go to, and a few days there
were a complete change from the odious town. He enjoyed the sense of
remoteness from ordinary mankind. He had developed a liking for old
Peyrol, the only man who had nothing to do with the Revolution--who had
not even seen it at work. The sincere lawlessness of the ex-Brother of
the Coast was refreshing. That one was neither a hypocrite nor a fool.
When he robbed or killed, it was not in the name of the sacred
revolutionary principles or for the love of humanity.
Of course Réal had remarked at once Arlette’s black, profound and
unquiet eyes and the persistent dim smile on her lips, her mysterious
silences and the rare sound of her voice which made a caress of every
word. He heard something of her story from the reluctant Peyrol who did
not care to talk about it. It awakened in Réal more bitter indignation
than pity. But it stimulated his imagination, confirmed him in that
scorn and angry loathing for the Revolution he had felt as a boy and had
nursed secretly ever since. She attracted him by her unapproachable
aspect. Later he tried not to notice that, in common parlance, she was
inclined to hang about him. He used to catch her gazing at him
stealthily. But he was free from masculine vanity. It was one day in
Toulon that it suddenly dawned on him what her mute interest in his
person might mean. He was then sitting outside a café sipping some drink
or other with three or four officers, and not listening to their
uninteresting conversation. He marvelled that this sort of illumination
should come to him like this, under these circumstances; that he should
have thought of her while seated in the street with these men round him,
in the midst of more or less professional talk! And then it suddenly
dawned on him that he had been thinking of nothing but that woman for
days.
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