It was plain enough to Lola that her mistress was reviewing in her mind
all the small points of their connection,—the engagement in the
housekeeper’s room, the knowledge of her parentage, the generous
presents of those clothes for her beautification, the half-jealous,
half-sympathetic interest that had been shown in her love affair with
Chalfont, as she had allowed Lady Feo to imagine. She had come to Dover
Street, not to take this woman’s husband away, but to give him back, to
beg that he should be retained by all the hollow ties of Church and law;
bound, held, controlled, rendered completely unable to break away,—not
for Feo’s sake, and not for his, but for his country’s. And so, having
committed no theft because Fallaray was morally free, and being
unashamed of her scheme which had been merely to give a lonely man the
rustle of silk, she hung upon an answer to her question.
Once more Feo turned to look at Lola, leaning forward, and for a moment
something flooded her eyes that was like blood, and a rush of unformed
words of blasphemous anger crowded to her lips. With distended nostrils
and widening fingers, she took on the appearance, briefly, of a figure,
half man, half woman, stirred to its vitals with a desire to kill in
punishment of treachery, suffering under the sort of humiliation that
makes pride collapse like a toy balloon. And then a sense of humor came
to the rescue. She sprang to her feet and burst into peal after peal of
laughter so loud and irresistible and prolonged, that it brought on
physical weakness and streaming tears. Finally, standing in her favorite
place with her back to the fireplace, dabbing her eyes and steadying her
voice, she began to talk huskily, with anger, and sarcasm, and
looseness, puncturing her sometimes pedantic choice of words with one
that was appropriate to a cab driver.
“Well, I’ll be damned,” she said, “Lola—purring little Lola, and in
those clothes, too! I don’t mind confessing that I would never have
believed it possible. I mean for you to have had the courage to aim so
high. It’s easy to understand _his_ end of it. The greater the ascetic,
the smaller the distance to fall. Ha!—And you, you busy patriot, you
earnest, self-confident young Lochinvar, if only I could make clear to
you the whole ludicrous aspect of this bitter farce, this mordant slice
of satire. You wouldn’t enjoy it, because you’re a hero-worshipper, with
one foot in the Albert period. And in any case I can’t let you into it
because my inherited instinct of sportsmanship is with me still, even in
this. And so you’ll miss the point of the orgy of laughter that gave me
the stitch. But I don’t mind telling you that it’s a scream, and would
make a lovely chapter in the history of statesmen’s love affairs.”
That Fallaray should have turned from her to pick up this bourgeois
little person, a servant in his house,—that was what rankled, in spite
of her saying that she understood his end of it. Good God!
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