"... And this young chap was one of the best and most promising fellows
I ever met. He belonged to the working class, but he was tremendously
keen to improve himself. When I met him first he couldn't even
read--it makes one smile to hear people talk about the good old
days!--but he very soon learned, and then he began to worry things out
for himself. I lent him one or two books myself ... John Stuart Mill,
I remember, and that old fool Carlyle, who ruled the roast at that
time."--Here a bearded gentleman at the back had to be called to
order.--"Then we both began to get into deeper waters, and with
assistance from Germany, soon found ourselves in a flood of isms,
although I am bound to say without being able to make very much of them.
"The time came, however, when this young man, who was really a very
fine fellow, took the wrong turning. He somehow got entangled with a
woman, a thoroughly bad lot I afterwards found out, a person of a type
much below his own. He was an extraordinarily simple chap, he had the
heart of a child. From a mistaken, an utterly mistaken sense of
chivalry, he finally married her.
"If ever a man was imposed upon and entrapped it was this poor fellow.
Of course he didn't know that at first. But from the hour of his
marriage deterioration set in. Ambition and all desire for
self-improvement began to go. Then he lost his mental poise, and he
became cynical, and no wonder, because that woman made his life a hell.
Even when the truth came to him he stuck to her, really I think out of
some quixotic notion he had of reforming her. Certainly he stuck to
her long after he ought to have, because slowly but surely she began to
drag him down. At last, when the full truth came home to him, he
killed her in a sudden fit of madness.
"Now, there was no real evil in that man. There were one or two soft
places in him, no doubt, as there are in most of us, but it is my firm
belief that had he married the right woman he would one day have been a
credit to his country. He was in every way a very fine fellow--in
fact, he was too fine a fellow. It was the vein of quixotic chivalry
in his nature that undid him. That was the cruelest part of the whole
thing. And I am bound to say that the doubts the higher criticism had
put into my mind were very much assisted by the fact that it was this
poor chap's real nobility of soul which destroyed him.
"From the point of view of reason, any man was wrong to marry such a
woman, even allowing for the fact that he was ignorant of her real
character and vocation when he married her. From the point of view of
ethics he was wrong; that is to say, he had not even infringed the code
of conventional morality, and was therefore under no obligation to do
so. And where he was doubly wrong in the sight of reason and ethics,
and where, in the sight of the Saviour of mankind, he was so
magnificently right, was in sticking to her in the way he did.
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