Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
"God! I may be a wicked woman, but how I have waited, how I have prayed,
to be delivered from him! Yes, prayed on my knees for him to die--to
make me free, to give me a chance! But what's the use? I thought I was
so clever! Clever?... I'm a stupid little fool! Career? I haven't the
ghost of a show! I know it now! There's no more hoping! I've had chance
after chance; what good did they do me? That last one--that opened my
eyes! Blainey's right; he didn't mince words. It was what I needed; it
convinced me! But, God! if he would only die!"
Dodo had sat breathlessly, even shrinking back in her chair, before
these passions in the raw, flung out without pretense of concealment,
horror-stricken.
"But what will you do then?" she cried, terrified at the expression in
Winona's eyes.
The girl's eyes came to hers, cold, resolved, disdainful; but she did
not reply. A horrible thought suddenly possessed Dodo, as of an ominous
echo out of her own past.
"You won't go back!" she cried, shuddering.
"Go back to that? To that loneliness, that starvation, that slavery,
after knowing this?" she cried furiously, clenching her fist and
starting back. Then she caught herself, looked away, and presently
turned, calm, with a light of bitter mockery on her set face. "No! That
is one thing I won't do!"
She dropped her fist, which had been pressed to her throat, with a short
rough gesture of finality, and went directly to her door.
"Whether you come to forgive me or not," she said, "if I ever can help
you, Dodo, save you from anything, come to me!"
And without waiting for an answer, she closed and locked the door.
For minute on minute Dodo remained as she had sprung up, her chin in her
hand, her knuckles pressed tensely against the sharp contact of her
teeth, thinking, hesitating, torn by conflicting impulses. Had Winona
dramatized her story, as she herself had done a hundred times? Was it
all true, or only half true? If it were true, then what had she sought
with Peavey, if not to be his wife--what, then? Only Peavey could tell
her, make her certain of the truth or falsity of this story. And yet,
there were accents, cries of the soul, despair of the eyes, that were
too poignantly felt to be counterfeited! Dodo tiptoed to the door,
listening. From the other side came the regular tread of a pacing step,
regular and nervous; but of weeping no sound! She remained still a
moment, her hand pressed to her breast, irresistibly drawn to belief.
Had Winona opened the door at the moment, she would have caught her in
her arms.
Then she remembered Lindaberry, staring into the horror of the
night--into the long wakeful darkness; and she said to herself, as she
departed hurriedly:
"To-morrow I will go to her. It can not be a lie!"
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