"I must, Dodo! I must!" "How can you?" she cried. "How cruel!" She covered her face suddenly, and her whole body began to tremble. "Good night!" he said hurriedly, a prey to a wild tugging that bade him leap to her. She did not answer, swaying in the center of her room, shaken from head to foot. "Good night!" He took a long breath and repeated: "Good night, Dodo!" Still she did not answer. "To-morrow!" No longer trusting himself, he flung through the door, out and down the stairs. She went herself across the room, her knees sinking under her, groped for the door, weakly closed it and turned the key. And for the first time she was afraid! How was it possible that she, who had known so much, who had feared so little, should suddenly, in the twinkling of an eye, have been overwhelmed, caught and mastered? What did it mean? And this question brought with it a fierce delirious joy in her moment of panic. For she was in fear--of many things known, and things uncomprehended: fear of where she had passed; fear of where she was going; of him! Had it been only a game, or had he, too, been caught as she had been caught? Fear there was of the flames that lay in his touch, fear of that blank moment when she had known nothing, cared nothing, with the sudden starting horror with which once she had come out of a swoon. But most of all she had a fear of the fire that had broken out within her, in that first awful, lawless moment, in which the knowledge of life had come to her in blinding realization. "Do I--is it love? If not, what is it? Why am I so?" But this time she did not dramatize her mood. She found no answer, slowly recovering mastery of herself. She remained with her back against the door, her arms extended, barring the return, bewildered, weak, revolted, happy, fearing, listening. Suddenly the sound of a returning step--a tapping on the door, irresolute, and a voice calling to her. It was Massingale. So! He had not been able to go! In a flash she was again the free Salamander, emerging out of the fire of conflict, triumphant by the last dramatic hazard. And being her own mistress again, she made no mistake. She drew herself up, arms barring the door in the sign of a cross. "Not now!" she said breathlessly. He did not answer. She heard his step on the stairs, descending. When, at last, her arms fell, there was a gleam of exultation in her eyes. Whatever this might mean, wherever it might lead, she knew now, by that momentary yielding weakness of his return, that she would be--in the last crisis--the stronger! CHAPTER X