Roger followed Dunn into the house. For the last fifteen minutes a
sensation of approaching calamity had been growing upon him. The proud
spirit of defiance with which he had declared himself well had forsaken
him. His brain reeled under a dull, oppressive weight. The dinner which
he had so recklessly devoured seemed like a mass of hardening cement in
his stomach; his lips trembled, perspiration broke out on his forehead.
Utterly wretched, he dragged himself upstairs to his room and sank into
a chair by the open window.
“And you thought you could row!” he groaned. “You poor fool!”
And then he was sick, violently sick, with convulsions that shook his
whole frame, sending great throbs of pain crashing through his brain. He
dropped his clothes in a pile on the floor and crept into bed, where he
lay with cheek buried in the pillow, listening horrified to his own
heart beating “tub-up! tub-up! tub-up!” in his ear. There was no longer
any doubt of his condition. “It’s my heart!” he muttered wildly to
himself. “My heart has gone back on me. They knew more about it than I
did. I’m not fit to row!”
The head throbs subsided after a time, and Roger began to think. He
recalled certain occasions in his childhood when he had suffered from
sick headaches. His mother used to sit beside him then, holding his
hand, and, with her quiet, soothing presence, helping him to bear the
pain. He missed her now, terribly. He felt, too, that he had forfeited
his right to her ministrations; he had been disloyal to her, in intent
at least, when she had been steadfastly loyal to him. The very command
against which he had rebelled was proof of her sympathy, for it was the
result of her effort to save his rowing when his father would have
forbidden it out of hand. “She did her best for me,” he thought in keen
self-reproach, “and she trusted me, and I was going back on her. It’s
all up with the rowing now; I shall never sit in a boat again, but I’ll
have the examination if I ever get out of this, just to prove that I’m
what she thinks I am.”
This resolution brought him a certain composure. He ceased to mourn, and
presently fell asleep. The sun was already slanting down through his
open window when he awoke. Mr. Adams stood at the bedside.
“How do you feel this morning?” asked the master. “If sleep can cure
you, you ought to be well. You’ve slept over breakfast in spite of all
the noise.”
“I’m better,” answered Roger, who had profited by the interval to get
his bearings. “My head doesn’t ache any more, but I feel rather weak and
hollow.”
“We’ll send you up something to eat. What shall it be?”
“I think I’d better see a doctor before I eat anything,” replied the
boy, humbly. His attitude had changed over night.
Mr. Adams nodded approval to this sentiment. “That’s right. You ought to
have seen one yesterday. I’ll telephone for Dr. Brayton. In the meantime
I’ll have them send up a little toast. You can nibble on that if you
feel faint.”
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