I once had the ill luck to run from Havre to Honfleur in a craft
loaded with such fools. Even in that short trip they found time to
grow weary of quiet, and to get up a ball. One of them--probably a
dancing master--had his Kit with him and played all sorts of dances in
the presence of that great Ocean. Happily one could not hear much of
that small music; scarcely now and then could a shrill note or two
rise above the solemn, the truly solemn bass of the Sea's roar. I can
easily imagine the sadness of the lady who, in July, suffers under the
invasion of a mob of these fops, fools, and gossips. All liberty is
then at an end. Even in the most retired spot the drowsy ear of night
is vexed by the boisterous echoes from saloon, and dancing room,
coffee-room and Casino. In the day the host of yellow gloves and
varnished boots crowds the shore. One lady is observed alone, with her
boy. Why is that? Impertinents wish to know, they approach, and,
gathering sea shells for the child, endeavor to force their
conversation on the mother. The lady is embarrassed, bored to death,
and has to confine herself to her lodging or venture out only in
early morning, while the empty pated revellers are still sleeping off
the effects of the last night's follies. Then, from her seclusion flow
a thousand ill natured comments. She becomes alarmed, for some of
these idlers have influence and may, possibly, injure her husband.
Nowhere more than at the sea side, are we inquisitive, and the poor
woman becomes agitated and sleepless during the long hot nights of
July and August, and if, towards morning, she at length sleeps, she is
not much more tranquil. The baths, far from cooling, add the saline
irritation to the fierce heat of the dog days. From her youth she
derives, not strength, but fever; and, weak and highly nervous, she is
all the more disturbed by that interior storm.
Interior, but yet not hidden. The Sea, the pitiless Sea, brings to the
skin the proofs of that excitement which the sufferer would fain keep
hidden. She betrays it by red blotches, slight efflorescences. All
these petty annoyances, which still more afflict the children, and
which in them the mother looks upon as signs of returning health, the
mothers feel as humiliations when seen on their own faces. They fear
that they will therefore be less loved. So little do they know of the
heart of man. They know not that the sharpest spur of love is not
beauty, but suffering.
"Oh! If he should find me ugly!" is the poor woman's morning thought,
as she looks in her glass. She at once fears and desires the coming of
her husband. And yet she feels so lonely, and fears, she knows not
what, amidst that noisy crowd. She dares not go out, she becomes
feverish, and at length is confined to her bed. In little more than
twenty-four hours, the beloved one is by her side.
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