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“It is hardly for me to say why,” he answered; “but I cannot wonder much
at it, considering the subjects I choose.--But I daresay,” he added, in
a lighter tone, “after all, that has little to do with it, and there
is something about the things themselves that precludes a favourable
judgment. I avoid thinking about it. A man ought to try to look at his
own work as if it were none of his, but not as with the eyes of other
people. That is an impossibility, and the attempt a bewilderment. It is
with his own eyes he must look, with his own judgment he must judge. The
only effort is to get it set far away enough from him to be able to use
his own eyes and his own judgment upon it.”
“I think I see what you mean. A man has but his own eyes and his own
judgment. To look with those of other people is but a fancy.”
“Quite so. You understand me quite.”
He said no more in explanation of his rejection by the Academy. Till we
reached the church, nothing more of significance passed between them.
What a waste, bare churchyard that was! It had two or three lych-gates,
but they had no roofs. They were just small enclosures, with the low
stone tables, to rest the living from the weight of the dead, while the
clergyman, as the keeper of heaven’s wardrobe, came forth to receive
the garment they restored--to be laid aside as having ended its work, as
having been worn done in the winds, and rains, and labours of the world.
Not a tree stood in that churchyard. Hank grass was the sole covering
of the soil heaved up with the dead beneath. What blasts from the awful
space of the sea must rush athwart the undefended garden! The ancient
church stood in the midst, with its low, strong, square tower, and its
long, narrow nave, the ridge bowed with age, like the back of a horse
worn out in the service of man, and its little homely chancel, like a
small cottage that had leaned up against its end for shelter from
the western blasts. It was locked, and we could not enter. But of all
world-worn, sad-looking churches, that one--sad, even in the sunset--was
the dreariest I had ever beheld. Surely, it needed the gospel of the
resurrection fervently preached therein, to keep it from sinking to the
dust with dismay and weariness. Such a soul alone could keep it from
vanishing utterly of dismal old age. Near it was one huge mound of
grass-grown rubbish, looking like the grave where some former church of
the dead had been buried, when it could stand erect no longer before
the onsets of Atlantic winds. I walked round and round it, gathering its
architecture, and peeping in at every window I could reach. Suddenly I
was aware that I was alone. Returning to the other side, I found that
Percivale was seated on the churchyard wall, next the sea--it would have
been less dismal had it stood immediately on the cliffs, but they were
at some little distance beyond bare downs and rough stone walls; he
was sketching the place, and Wynnie stood beside him, looking over his
shoulder.
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