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We sat hand in hand. Neither spoke aloud for some minutes, but we
spoke in our hearts to God, talking to him about Wynnie. Then we rose
together, and walked homeward, still in silence. But my heart and hand
clung to my wife as to the angel whom God had sent to deliver me out of
the prison of my faithlessness. And as we went, lo! the sky was
glorious again. It had faded from my sight, had grown flat as a dogma,
uninteresting as “a foul and pestilent congregation of vapours;” the
moon had been but a round thing with the sun shining upon it, and the
stars were only minding their own business. But now the solemn march
towards an unseen, unimagined goal had again begun. Wynnie’s life was
hid with Christ in God. Away strode the cloudy pageant with its banners
blowing in the wind, which blew where it grandly listed, marching as to
a solemn triumphal music that drew them from afar towards the gates of
pearl by which the morning walks out of the New Jerusalem to gladden the
nations of the earth. Solitary stars, with all their sparkles drawn in,
shone, quiet as human eyes, in the deep solemn clefts of dark blue air.
They looked restrained and still, as if they knew all about it--all
about the secret of this midnight march. For the moon--she saw the sun,
and therefore made the earth glad.
“You have been a moon to me this night, my wife,” I said. “You were
looking full at the truth, while I was dark. I saw its light in your
face, and believed, and turned my soul to the sun. And now I am both
ashamed and glad. God keep me from sinning so again.”
“My dear husband, it was only a mood--a passing mood,” said Ethelwyn,
seeking to comfort me.
“It was a mood, and thank God it is now past; but it was a wicked one.
It was a mood in which the Lord might have called me a devil, as he did
St. Peter. Such moods have to be grappled with and fought the moment
they appear. They must not have their way for a single thought even.”
“But we can’t help it always, can we, husband?”
“We can’t help it out and out, because our wills are not yet free with
the freedom God is giving us as fast as we will let him. When we are
able to will thoroughly, then we shall do what we will. At least, I
think we shall. But there is a mystery in it God only understands.
All we know is, that we can struggle and pray. But a mood is an awful
oppression sometimes when you least believe in it and most wish to get
rid of it. It is like a headache in the soul.”
“What do the people do that don’t believe in God?” said Ethelwyn.
The same moment Wynnie, who had seen us pass the window, opened the door
of the bark-house for us, and we passed into Connie’s chamber and found
her lying in the moonlight, gazing at the same heavens as her father and
mother had been revelling in.
CHAPTER II.
OUR LAST SHORE-DINNER.
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