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I think I must have been the very happiest of the party myself. No doubt
I was younger much than I am now, but then I was quite middle-aged, with
full confession thereof in gray hairs and wrinkles. Why should not a man
be happy when he is growing old, so long as his faith strengthens the
feeble knees which chiefly suffer in the process of going down the hill?
True, the fever heat is over, and the oil burns more slowly in the lamp
of life; but if there is less fervour, there is more pervading warmth;
if less of fire, more of sunshine; there is less smoke and more light.
Verily, youth is good, but old age is better--to the man who forsakes
not his youth when his youth forsakes him. The sweet visitings of nature
do not depend upon youth or romance, but upon that quiet spirit whose
meekness inherits the earth. The smell of that field of beans gives me
more delight now than ever it could have given me when I was a youth.
And if I ask myself why I find it is simply because I have more faith
now than I had then. It came to me then as an accident of nature--a
passing pleasure flung to me only as the dogs’ share of the crumbs. Now
I believe that God _means_ that odour of the bean-field; that when Jesus
smelled such a scent about Jerusalem or in Galilee, he thought of his
Father. And if God means it, it is mine, even if I should never smell it
again. The music of the spheres is mine if old age should make me deaf
as the adder. Am I mystical again, reader? Then I hope you are too, or
will be before you have done with this same beautiful mystical life
of ours. More and more nature becomes to me one of God’s books of
poetry--not his grandest--that is history--but his loveliest, perhaps.
And ought I not to have been happy when all who were with me were happy?
I will not run the risk of wearying even my contemplative reader by
describing to him the various reflexes of happiness that shone from the
countenances behind me in the carriage, but I will try to hit each off
in a word, or a single simile. My Ethelwyn’s face was bright with the
brightness of a pale silvery moon that has done her harvest work, and, a
little weary, lifts herself again into the deeper heavens from stooping
towards the earth. Wynnie’s face was bright with the brightness of the
morning star, ever growing pale and faint over the amber ocean that
brightens at the sun’s approach; for life looked to Wynnie severe in its
light, and somewhat sad because severe. Connie’s face was bright with
the brightness of a lake in the rosy evening, the sound of the river
flowing in and the sound of the river flowing forth just audible, but
itself still, and content to be still and mirror the sunset. Dora’s was
bright with the brightness of a marigold that follows the sun without
knowing it; and Eliza’s was bright with the brightness of a half-blown
cabbage rose, radiating good-humour. This last is not a good simile, but
I cannot find a better. I confess failure, and go on.
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