The Secret Life: Being the Book of a HereticBisland, Elizabeth
Philosophy
The Secret Life: Being the Book of a Heretic
Bisland, Elizabeth
Diaries
Of course, a reaction would follow the first red lust for denunciation
and for revenge of the deep damnation of the taking off of the
helpless victim. One would be continually paralyzed in the very act of
vengeance by the remembrance that one had no better authority than a
dream for proof of crime in those one had always loved and trusted.
The thing would seem so incredible, and yet the dream would explain
all the puzzling facts so clearly. To a young and noble mind, evil in
those one loves appears impossible. One would be always fighting the
thought--which pulled the very ground of confidence from under one's
feet--and yet always laying traps to prove one's suspicions true, as
the jealous notoriously do; wishing yet fearing to know the truth.
Hamlet's varying fits of violence and indecision seem natural enough
under the circumstances, and not a sign of madness nor of eccentricity
of character. He is called the "Melancholy Dane," but to a young
confiding heart the first revelation of the possibility of filth and
criminality in those near in blood and love causes distrust of all
the world; arouses a mad desire for escape out of a cruel existence
where such spiritual squalour is possible. If one will bring the
situation home to one's self in this way--vivifying it with one's own
heart--Hamlet no longer seems a strange and alien soul, but one's
very own self caught in a web of horrid circumstance, and doing and
being just what one's self would do and be in like case. Temptation to
suicide, murder, "unpacking one's heart with words," bitterness to, and
distrust of, the innocent Ophelia, treachery, doubt, indecision,--all
are inevitable temptations. Looked at in this way, there is no mystery
at all in the play if one reads it straight and simply, and from the
human point of view--which view was always Shakespeare's, I think.
December 13.
Ghosts.
The R----s are home this week from California, and full of a
surprising tale of their experience in renting and trying to live in
a haunted house. They had no idea of its unpleasant character when
they took it. Indeed they decided upon it principally because of the
sunniness of the rooms and its generally cheerful character. The only
suspicious feature was the very moderate price; but that appears to
have aroused only gratitude instead of suspicion in their minds.
The sounds they heard, which finally drove them out of the house, were
such commonplace ones--the clinking of medicine bottles, the mixing of
stuff in saucers--that one hardly believes they could have invented
them. Invention would certainly have conceived a more dramatic excuse
for abandoning a house. Also, they solemnly aver that it was only upon
their giving up the lease that they heard the story of the almost
incredible tragedy of the former owner's death.
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