Sir Richmond was stirred very deeply by Miss Grammont’s confidences. His dispute with Dr. Martineau was present in his mind, so that he did not want to make love to her. But he was extremely anxious to express his vivid sense of the value of her friendship. And while he hesitated over this difficult and unfamiliar task she began to talk again of herself, and in such a way as to give a new turn to Sir Richmond’s thoughts. “Perhaps I ought to tell you a little more about myself,” she said; “now that I have told you so much. I did a thing that still puzzles me. I was filled with a sense of hopeless disaster in France and I suppose I had some sort of desperate idea of saving something out of the situation.... I renewed my correspondence with Gunter Lake. He made the suggestion I knew he would make, and I renewed our engagement.” “To go back to wealth and dignity in New York?” “Yes.” “But you don’t love him?” “That’s always been plain to me. But what I didn’t realize, until I had given my promise over again, was that I dislike him acutely.” “You hadn’t realized that before?” “I hadn’t thought about him sufficiently. But now I had to think about him a lot. The other affair had given me an idea perhaps of what it means to be married to a man. And here I am drifting back to him. The horrible thing about him is the steady ENVELOPING way in which he has always come at me. Without fellowship. Without any community of ideas. Ready to make the most extraordinary bargains. So long as he can in any way fix me and get me. What does it mean? What is there behind those watching, soliciting eyes of his? I don’t in the least love him, and this desire and service and all the rest of it he offers me--it’s not love. It’s not even such love as Caston gave me. It’s a game he plays with his imagination.” She had released a flood of new ideas in Sir Richmond’s mind. “This is illuminating,” he said. “You dislike Lake acutely. You always have disliked him.” “I suppose I have. But it’s only now I admit it to myself.” “Yes. And you might, for example, have married him in New York before the war.” “It came very near to that.” “And then probably you wouldn’t have discovered you disliked him. You wouldn’t have admitted it to yourself.” “I suppose I shouldn’t. I suppose I should have tried to believe I loved him.” “Women do this sort of thing. Odd! I never realized it before. And there are endless wives suppressing an acute dislike. My wife does. I see now quite clearly that she detests me. Reasonably enough. From her angle I’m entirely detestable. But she won’t admit it, won’t know of it. She never will. To the end of my life, always, she will keep that detestation unconfessed. She puts a face on the matter. We both do. And this affair of yours.... Have you thought how unjust it is to Lake?” “Not nearly so much as I might have done.”