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Don Aloysius was silent for a minute or two, out of gentle tolerance.
He recognised that Lady Kingswood belonged to the ordinary class of
good, kindly women not overburdened with brains, to whom thought,
particularly of a scientific or reflective nature, would be a kind of
physical suffering. And how fortunate it is that there are, and always
will be such women! Many of them are gifted with the supreme talent of
making happiness around themselves,--and in this way they benefit
humanity more than the often too self-absorbed student of things which
are frequently "past finding out."
"I understand your feeling";--he said, at last--"And I hardly wonder at
your very natural fears. I must admit that I think human daring is
going too fast and too far--the science of to-day is not tending to
make men and women happier--and after all, happiness is the great goal."
A slight sigh escaped him, and Lady Kingswood looked at his fine,
composed features with deep interest.
"Do you think God meant us to be happy?" she asked, gently.
"It is a dubious question!" he answered--"When we view the majesty and
loveliness of nature--we cannot but believe we were intended to enjoy
the splendid treasures of beauty freely spread out before us,--then
again, if we look back thousands of years and consider the great
civilisations of the past that have withered into dust and are now
forgotten, we cannot help wondering why there should be such a waste of
life for apparently no purpose. I speak in a secular sense,--of course
my Church has but one reply to doubt, or what we call 'despair of God's
mercy'--that it is sin. We are not permitted to criticise or to
question the Divine."
"And surely that is best!" said Lady Kingswood, "and surely you have
found happiness, or what is nearest to happiness, in your beautiful
Faith?"
His eyes were shadowed by deep gravity.
"Miladi, I have never sought happiness," he replied; "From my earliest
boyhood I felt it was not for me. Among the comrades of my youth many
started the race of life with me--happiness was the winning post they
had in view--and they tried many ways to reach it--some through
ambition, some through wealth, some through love--but I have never
chanced to meet one of them who was either happy or satisfied. MY mind
was set on nothing for myself--except this--to grope through the
darkness for the Great Mind behind the Universe--to drop my own 'ego'
into it, as a drop of rain into the sea--and so--to be content! And in
this way I have learned much,--more than I consider myself worthy to
know. Modern science of the surface kind--(not the true deep
discoveries)--has done its best to detach the rain-drop from the
sea!--but it has failed. I stay where I have plunged my soul!"
He spoke as it were to himself with the air of one inspired; he had
almost forgotten the presence of Lady Kingswood, who was gazing at him
in a rapture of attention.
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