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"Oh, surely you know what I mean!" pursued Morgana--"YOU have been
married. Well, when you were first married were you very, very happy?
Did your husband love you entirely without a thought for anybody or
anything else?--and were you all in all to each other?"
Lady Kingswood was quite taken aback by the personal directness of
these questions, but deciding within herself that Morgana must be
contemplating marriage on her own behalf, answered simply and
truthfully--
"My husband and I were very fond of each other. We were the best of
friends and good companions. Of course he had his military duties to
attend to and was often absent--"
"And you stayed at home and kept house,"--interpolated Morgana,
musingly--"I see! That is what all wives have to do! But I suppose he
just adored you?"
Lady Kingswood smiled.
"'Adore' is a very strong word to use, my dear!" she said--"I doubt if
any married people 'adore' each other! If they can be good friends and
rub along pleasantly through all the sorrows and joys of life together,
they should be satisfied."
"And you call that LOVE!" said Morgana, with a passionate thrill in her
voice--"Love! 'Love that is blood within the veins of time!' Just
'rubbing along pleasantly together!' Dear 'Duchess,' that wouldn't suit
ME!"
Lady Kingswood looked at her with interested, kind eyes.
"But then, what WOULD suit you?" she queried--"You know you mustn't
expect the impossible!"
"What the world calls the impossible is always the possible"--said
Morgana--"And only the impossible appeals to me!"
This was going beyond the boundary-line of Lady Kingswood's brain
capacity, so she merely remained agreeably quiescent.
"And when your child was born"--pursued Morgana--"did you feel a
wonderful ecstasy?--a beautiful peace and joy?--a love so great that it
was as if God had given you something of His Own to hold and keep?"
Lady Kingswood laughed outright.
"My dear girl, you are too idealistic! Having a baby is not at all a
romantic business!--quite the reverse! And babies are not interesting
till they 'begin to take notice' as the nurses say. Then when they get
older and have to go to school you soon find out that you have loved
THEM far more than they have loved or ever WILL love YOU!"
As she said this her voice trembled a little and she sighed.
"I see! I think I quite understand!" said Morgana--"And it is just what
I have always imagined--there is no great happiness in marriage. If it
is only a matter of 'rubbing along pleasantly together' two friends can
always do that without any 'sex' attraction, or tying themselves up
together for life. And it's not much joy to bring children into the
world and waste treasures of love on them, if after you have done all
you can, they leave you without a regret,--like the birds that fly from
a nest when once they know how to use their wings."
Lady Kingswood's eyes were sorrowful.
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