Though the husband of her niece wore publicly a look of faith
unimpaired, and was thereby an example to her, Aunt Bell declared
herself to be once more on the verge of believing that the proofs of an
overseeing Providence, all-wise and all-loving, were by no means
overwhelming; that they were, indeed, of so frail a validity that she
could not wonder at people falling away from the Church. It was a trying
time for Aunt Bell. She felt that her return to the shadow of the cross
was not being made enough of by the One above. After years of running
after strange gods, the Episcopal service as administered by Allan had
prevailed over her seasoned skepticism: through its fascinating leaven
of romance--with faint and, as it seemed to her, wholly reverent hints
of physical culture--the spirit may be said to have blandished her. And
now this turpitude in a man of God came to disturb the first tender
rootlings of her new faith.
The husband of her niece had loyally endeavoured to dissuade her from
this too human reaction.
"God has chosen to try me for a purpose, Aunt Bell," he said very
simply. "I ought to be proud of it--eager for any test--and I am. True,
in these last years I had looked upon grandfather's fortune as mine--not
only by implied promise, but by all standards of right--even of
integrity. For surely a man could not more nearly forfeit his own
rights, in every moral aspect, than poor Bernal has--though I meant
always to stand by him. So you see, I must conclude that God means to
distinguish me by a test. He may even subject me to others; but I shall
not wince. I shall welcome His trials. He turned upon her the face of
simple faith."
"Did you speak to that lawyer about the possibility of a contest--of
proving unsound mind?"
"I did, but he saw no chance whatever."
Aunt Bell hereupon surveyed her beautifully dimpled knuckles minutely,
with an affectionate pride--a pride not uncritical, yet wholly
convinced.
"Of course," added Allan after a moment's reflection, "there's no sense
in believing that every bit of one's hard luck is sent by God to test
one. One must in all reverence take every precaution to prove that the
disaster is not humanly remediable. And this, I may say, I have done
with thoroughness--with great thoroughness."
"Bernal may be dead," suggested Aunt Bell, brightening now from an
impartial admiring of the toes of her small, plump slippers.
"God forbid that he should be cut off in his unbelief--but then, God's
will be done. If that be true, of course, the matter is different.
Meantime we are advertising."
"I wish I had your superb faith, Allan. I wish Nancy had it...."
Her niece's husband turned his head and shoulders until she had the
three-quarters view of his face.
"I have faith, Aunt Bell. God knows my unworthiness, even as you know it
and I know it--but I have faith!"
The golden specks in his hazel eyes blazed with humility, and a flush of
the same virtue mantled his perfect brow.
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